This is a new subject for me as I was sent on a trip (ALIT) A Learning Intensive Trip by the SOR (Structure Of Reality) way back in 2013 which would move me around the province and I was allowed to
FEEL - Emotions that I was never privy to likely due to weeds and booze as while this TRIP began on September 4, 2013 the SOBRIETY (booze) began on Febraury 15, 2013 so I was already imersered in my SOBRIETY at 201 days and it was damn hard but I began some walk thing called The Rockie Mountain Trek that was a walk around my Province of Alberta (so I had a session with the Dietitian Cathy and she says she wants me on her GREEN TEAM but she needs / wants 10,000 steps a day and I freaked as I said " your insane now to " but I joined as I wanted to see if I was able / capable of walking 70,000 steps a week
At this time I was hanging on a chat group for hours a day (HOURS) and the walk began at March 29, 2013 just after I became a SOBER crazy human and I was called to her office and handed a Pedometer and the adventure began that was going to run till June 5, 2013
There were 592 people in this walk and at the end I was pissed as I was 5th out of the 592 and I so wanted to be # 1
Cathy said that I was in the top 1% and this did little but you know I was now unable to stop waking everyday and the shrinks (the book end team, who figured out a way to screw the tax people along with all of their clients at the same time) were screwing around with the medicine as they would raise it and drop it and I was slowly messing up to the point I was now totally unaware of the space I was in
I shut down at a very age as a direct result of the HORROR I went through and it is now all very new to have FEELINGS OF A HUMAN TYPE
Angels I am so very blessed very as I was rescued from a place in my mind that no one should ever end up in trapped in for as long as I was as I have very little idea as how to feel much RAPE did this to me -- I shut down as a child and I know the WEEDS / BOOZE didn't help it was the path I was sent on and even losing all my teeth in a barbaric manner was all needed to open my HEART as fast as it did
So once again I am very, very GRATEFUL as I had to hurt bad to feel great as a human after being shut down for 52 long years
Thank YOU God / Jesus Christ & All the Angels who saved my life all of those times I that all the people and systems that worked so hard to pull me out of tthe fire that I was found in when I was rescued
THANK YOU ALL
I WILL HUMBLY SERVE HUMANITY AND MY GOD & JESUS CHRIST UNTIL I ALLOWED TO COME HOME AFTER I HELP PEOPLE SMILE AGAIN
THANK YOU ALL MY ANGELS
THANK YOU
NOVEMBER 5, 2022