April 16, 2022:~ What The Crisis Line Seems To Say Is That I Am To Be " Destroyed By The System "

This is the way we play, as I trusted ( no fault as I was raised ) by HUMANS to TRUST Doctors and the and as a result the people in Mental Heath Pharmaceutical Governmental Medical Industrial Complex ----And I keep getting totally burned as a RESULT


They have been working on this for -- 39 Long Painful Harmful (to me) Years --- I do NOT COUNT in The Eyes Of The System --- Because for one simple REASON I " have lived to long "

I DO NOT WANT TO DIE NO MORE AS I CAN FEEL --LOVE Finally from my own Little Life My Community the Few Places I do Business At as it seems I can finally


Feel Like A Real --- Human Being


An ACTUAL REAL ------------------------------------ HUMAN BEING


YA ME A ---- HUMAN BEING ---- Just Like my Mom & Dad used to me, " Son one day You will be a fine man and people will LOVE YOU "


After my Dad passed away on February 19. 1975 it would then take until a last ditch attempt of just ending my life on April 11, 2022 ~ And I Found or He Found Me


Ya He is God and His Son Jesus Christ


That was some --- 47 years, 1 month, 23 days ---between these days I never felt LOVE or hardly even Kindness and now it is coming at me so FAST It Is messing my WHOLE LIFE UP Again as I lost so very much after I lost my Dad


Oh God


The system over drugged me for DECADES as a Result of a WAR between My Dad Edgar Faciote who didn't agree with Dick Fowler who at one point became the Mayor of my Town and when I was Sent To FACS -- Dick Fowler was the Top Cop controlling who got sentenced to where and for HOW LONG


I was sentenced for just one ( * 1 * ) year but as MENTAL MEDS will do I became a SLAVE to the FACS and I had no way to escape when I still was YOUNG It was about 1989 -1992 I was sentenced and I was a CHEMICALLY CONTROLLED By The Big Pharma and it started off as a Doctor Peter Williams who after maybe 5-6 sessions showed up in the Office of and spouts out


" You have a chemical imbalance " ( these 5 words ended my life ) and i gets so very much lose ( as I would be over medicated for 14 long years at this clinic ) I would escape sorta in 2006 at the exact time that my sham marriage with the Ceremony Performed By Judge Dick Fowler in 1999


These are classic strange words


Yup as in the 5 -6 sessions he asked me what drugs and drinks etc I was doing well here is the shit list


1) I was smoking cigarettes ( 1987 started )

2) weeds 1975 started ( after my dad passed away )

3) booze mainly beer & wine started 1975 ( after my dad passed away )

4) Opiates between, Tylenol # 3. Oxycontin, and or Percecets ( and lots as I was in pain at the time )


5) and I had major hate on for the WCB as that is why the OPIATES were a issue


And this guy says I have a chemical imbalance


And so do I get REHAB to attempt to get me clean ???


NOPE

as this was not the goal


The GOAL Was to Totally Destroy Me .. systematically, Oh WOW This is the first time I have seen this in writing as It is blowing my little mind away ....


Note in 1999 I was married and pretty much as fast as she was here in Canada she hooked up with a Forensic Psychiatrist, MINE and she was not charged to get into the Same Clinic but this was going to test me totally


She my wife decided on January 2006 that she wanted a room in the basement of our Habitat for Humanity and this guy began eating at our home ( eating our food) and then more and more and this takes us to March 16, 2006 .... when I decided to make a cheese sandwich, and I grabbed a knife to cut the cheese and her now " Boyfriend " says " you are trying to KILL ME " Yup I guess i wasn't but this was it .. i just went to bed


Next day St Paddy's day and she heads out with a few of her girlfriends and I decided to have a bubble bath and the tunes were on louder that usual and I am relaxed as I smoked what would be one of my last Joints for a very long time


And then the damn phone rings and it might be the Kid who also tagged along from South Africa with her mom

I get out and its her Now " Boyfriend " with I am going to KILL YOU .... this was March 17, 2006


It at this time I am now out of the bath tub --- and I dress and then my door begins to be kicked on and and it is him and I called the Police and they basically say open the door , and I remind them I pay taxes


So he ( BF ) runs away, and an hour they show up and look around the area (fucker is hiding )

At 930ish PM ... The South African Police crazy wife walks and yells at me " it is over " " This marriage is done ""


She goes into the kitchen and grabs a bottle and disappears into the night as she knows where he hides as a few other people are after him


The moment she steps out the door I pump my arm and say THANK YOU GOD as the whole 7 years was a hell as she used, ----> every thing and narcissist / humiliation / manipulation she could pull and the 9 days before her and that damn kid are to become Canadian Citizens she ends the marriage ( 9 fucken days _ It is like she planned this all out right down to the few days before she became a member of The Canadian Population ) FUCK


Now back to the FACS And Dr Otto Cadsky who would drug the shit out of me as the Original doctor ( Peter Williams ) instead of REDUCING the


Yup as in the 5 -6 sessions he asked me what drugs and drinks etc I was doing well here is the shit list


1) I was smoking cigarettes ( 1987 started )

2) weeds 1975 started ( after my dad passed away )

3) booze mainly beer & wine started 1975 ( after my dad passed away )

4) Opiates between, Tylenol # 3. Oxycontin, and or Percecets ( and lots as I was in pain at the time )


5) and I had major hate on for the WCB as that is why the OPIATES were a issue


He ADDED More Chemicals to brain and mind plus body and so began the slow destruction of MY LIFE THE ONLY ONE THAT I AM EVER GOING TO FUCKEN GET


And YOU don't give a shit at all as you want a picture of me and what?? You don't care and that is the way this ends as YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME


You will take and take and take from me as you have always have and I am about to KILL MYSELF RIGHT NOW

Thanks For The Ride It was IT HAS BEEN FUN


But here is what happens to YOUR WORLD when I TAKE MY LIFE


YOUR whole fucken WORLD goes up in FLAMES AND HELL IS NOW 1000 YEARS as it is written about in a BOOK most of you missed -- as my DAD SAID


PAY ATTENTION


Lucien The Light II


April 2022



Boom Boom The Lights GO OUT ( FOR GOOD THIS TIME )

You could have cared about me a bit more


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