Aug 14 Again More Torture -- Accident or on Purpose? Or Yet A New Lesson Of Life

I have been sitting in my home since I was last dropped off the Hooker Cleaning Company ( this is no Joke ) and I was not doing for anything other than some help as I have been asking my people who call themselves " My Friends " or they say they like it when I make them smile ( these two incredible ladies did more inn just a couple hours when it comes to helping me attempting to organize my " humble home " what did you " friends " etc actually think I had friends that have even ever seen me in a few years as he is " The Famous One " and you think this comes with House Keeping Tokens and I have asked everyone and I mean everyone besides people who live a zillion miles away from The Mad Hatter Experience

Anyway where I am going I am going to talk to you as adults and saving many young girls lives with this system as this is a doable system in a system with a heart

I just remembered my dads last Christmas he invested a good chunk of money in a Chemistry Set this was so cool and to end up on so many, many different pills all my damn life maybe my Dad knew lots of stuff and attempted to teach me as much as he was able in the limited time that he was going to be here as my hero ( I Blamed the world I really did as I just damn pissed at 14 years old and 14 for only 15 days ) I don't get anything at all most times as it just stopped until it was brought back to life and I don't have any clue as to how this all occurred as ) I have the worst pain killer and NOT EVEN A SINGLE Tylenool off the counter as I waited all day for a druggist who lied unto me over and over again and I have no idea why this was going on

But he weasels pennies from the system and knows the damn game all to well and I called him on his Anger and when I did he said I was projecting ( damn mental health doctor as he is so very smarter than everyone you just can't win ) and he makes medince choices that likely are not right but now I called him and he was not happy as hid before the TEXT SYSTEM and took shots at me for hours that i could have been spending looking for actual help -- I trusted him and that makes me the bigger fool as my dad would say --

The Blog has set me back a lot as I exist on little as this is why at times when i ask you in your car and i really do not give a shit what you drive as I have met young ladies on the escape like abuse shit I knew I thought because of the up bringing ( Old St Albert in the 60s to mid 70s ) this shit is real and I have just spent 5 plus close to 6 years in this community which i was very welcome ( once The Mad Hatter Experience ) hat went on this silly mans head who actually only wanted to be the class clown in Grade 9 Sex Ed Class well I actually bet that teacher and my fellow students didn't see The Global Clown of that class that day no one expected it certainly not The Mad Hatter Experience as shit a year or two before I buried my Dad and had to process my mom was fucken sick and we actually had ZERO SUPPORT from anyone in the town and I was thinking as who knew Comics in 1975

You know what is really damn sad as the day I was leaving after fucken 17 years not a damn single friend came out to say goodbye --- 17 years and not a single friend as that was it THE DAMN END OF MY LIFE

do I want the house back that was stolen YUP and here is where to save some young peoples lives ( to hard for the white picket fence crowd ) this is why we get the damn issue of Homeless, Mentally ill, abused, addicted in the worlds we shun ourselves from

I still do wish the home back as my dad & mom did raise two kids and one had help and one had zero help but was forced feed drugs ( PILLS, INJECTIONS) FOR THE DAMN WRONG ILLNESSES -- Somehow you and your compassion for someone you knew ZERO KNEW VERY LITTLE ABOUT until I was allowed to step into my ROLE as The Mad Hatter Experience -- God and his son gave me an idea how to get out of the cell I was locked in at the ERC and in 88 days all the human contact that I knew I was not sure I knew three human beings plus the incredible teams of COs behind the scenes who made it practical as I was able to study and read as one Guard would print things for me, and the next day at dinner and didn't piss everyone off and take the damn pills even when I never thought they belonged in my TEST VEHCILE ( my body )

I spent a very very long period of time in a place I never needed to be but this is how we make money as some people are through always ( that was me as by the time I entered ERC for the first time ever under the kindness most compassionate officer / human I ever met on January 27, 2014 for telling a Library Social Worker that was working with me on a project I called Housing ( yah I took it in the butt more than one way as I told David that I had enough after meeting with HOUSING ) and this was to be the first meeting and she said that I " had to be homeless for ONE YEAR " as this seemed like I was being punished and I saw the picture of this being I had to go alone, as I told my it turned out my friend David the actual wheels started moving in all directions it was so damn fast as I was at the library after my muffin and 2 coffees at wild earth in the EPCOR TOWER ( did not ask either but I knew I had to keep my dream of a house alive and I was going to do everything I was allowed to think of as it as crazy ONE YEAR and at this stage I thought I OWNED ZERO BUT MY LIFE as this was what someone needed to have me believe and you know if you actually believe in something totally 100% it can be yours somehow as God does work miracles as doesn't only destroy families when the kid is just 14 for 15 days and alone when it began

When I went to Jail I Had no Recipe Book ( call it now MY BIBLE that the pastor on my second time through this nightmare would start ) but I had 346 days of sobriety as I stayed sober in the homeless shelter and by the time I returned back to your world it would be 3 years 7 months and 27 days and at this stage that began on February 15, 2013 and took the hardest trip I ever took today thanks with God and My Entire Team of Everyone ( U2 ) I have some 9 years and 5 months and 29 days and you all should be included on The Mad Hatters Experience Sobriety run like on Court I have likely 9 years and 6 months and I owe the Citizens of This Town who tolerated my behavior where ever I melted and the entire Community Of EPS and the workers in the places I don't know and I actually don't want to meet you as you have weird rooms and humans can get messed up in many of them ( I don't know as I did )

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You know I live below the poverty line z( what ever this maybe ) as I have yet to die and as you have seen I made fun out of my everyday life thing's and I have even seen a few of you smiling at me as I walk down the streets -- even when we were masking I saw some people smiling as I had to work harder

when I was struck down with a hole in my tailbone which landed me in Hospital for 47 days and a cut job on my ass that prevents things like ( tight jeans ) in fact I have not worn Jeans in around a few years when I was chopped up like a turkey at the Christmas as it looks horrible and I have no idea what it was to come out as I have not cooked a Turkey since 1978 and I have had a few at friends homes including the one that was 3 days after my Mom passed and when they had me sit on Santa Klaus knees went to far and I didn't get it and now I do as there was only but one picture of this laughing project and it was made gone when I was sent on the exile of a lifetime the one that ended when all my damn teeth were forcibly removed from my mouth in a single session WITH ZERO FREEZING (&) NO SCREAMING AS THERE WERE CHILDREN IN HER CLINIC ( THAT MAYBE SHE WAS RUNNING AS A PART TIME CHILDRENS DAY CARE CENTER AS i GUESS MONEY WAS TIGHT AS i HAVE ASKED A BUNCH OF DENTURISTS AND NO ONE DOES THIS NO ONE AND YET IT OCCCURED WITH MY AS IT WAS BAD AND SO FAR I HAVE FOUND NO PEOPLE THAT WANT TO TRY AND ATTEMPT THIS SAME EXPERIMENT THAT TTHE TAX PAYERS OF ALBERTA FUNDED ( hey why am i even doing what I am doing Making Happy People )

You do know why it happened? so we all could see if I one day would learn to forgive the people that took a part in my DENTAL EXPERIMENT

and I finally learned after a few years forgave them and this was only recently as I had to let it go from the SHRINK that was actually well I don't know maybe a good doctor I just don't know as every time I was able to see him I was put in a room with a social worker and things I would mention in the sessions would somehow get back to the lady who ran the house which is really not private as if a lady running a group home finds out the same week that you tell the Social Worker its weird as I am only a Mental Health Client not a test tube, I was built up over time ( a few weeks ZI can not remember the time frame that I was no longer able to pee in the bowl and this is when I was sent to the dentist as it was like I was ready

BUT ARE YOU

WOULD YOU ALLOW A TEST LIKE THIS ON YOU OR A FAMILY MEMBER ( WOULD YOU )

REALLY I DOUBT IT AS THIS WAS A NASTY PAIN THAT WAS STILL VERY BAD EVEN A FEW DAYS LATER ( NO PROP WE HAVE MORE PILLS )

THE WEIRD THING WAS WHEN i ESCAPED THANKS TO A HEALTH LINK NURSE WHO ON THAT DAY ON JUNE 30, 2016 LIKELY SAVED MY LIFE AS IT HURT AND THE MEALS WERE KINDA A MESS IT WAS GRUEL AND SHE WOULDN'T START IT UP IN THE BLENDER UNTIL I WAS SEATED AND THE BOWL IN FRONT OF ME ON THE TABLE THE CAT ATE AT --- BUT LIKE I SAID I FORGAVE

AND THE DOCTOR ALSO AS HE CAME ALL THE WAY OT TO THE HOSPITAL FOR ME SO i SHOULD BE SO LUCKY ACCEPTTHAT HE CASUED TO HAVE ME NO LONGER EAT NORMAL FOOD( EVER AGAIN ) AND i KIND OF LIKED A BIG MAC OR A SUBWAY SUB

No teeth is a drag really a drag if you are being pushed into thinking for a living and talking

The last Opiates I had was Friday 13, around 3pm it is now 630am on Sunday and this is way to many hours for anyone doing yes Cold turkey off 2 Opiates and one was just reclassified as a Opiate a few months ago according to my Team and I am not trying to kill myself but it sure as heck feels like it as this is nasty as I shouldn't be going through this but for someone in DRUG TEAM cut me off as he was not around in on Saturday and I suffered greatly by this I truly I might die and this would make the last laugh on everyone ( yah you as YOU all fixed me and sent me to a mad man druggist who pulled this shit from NOWHERE and then continued it all night as I suffered as like he was somehow taking delight in my pain but it was multiple lie after lie and I have no idea if I am going to make it till something opens as COLD TURKEY OFF OPIATES is not a good idea and I am doing two at the exact same time

If I die I am sorry I must have screwed up but he was not working on weekends until he got my account and then he took the account as the his behavior began

But if I pass I am really sorry as I wasn't planning it this time as he changed the hours and then he made it my fault for all of throwing stuff at me even calling his $ 16, 999 client delusional ( he even did the math and I am sorry as I have now been up all night as the pain is that damn bad so sad I am now as maybe I am delusional but I have seen things he should never do in the front of clients )He is in bed and I have the world worse pain inmy legs and head with this damn headache that I seem to have downloaded as one can't have ever thing but it does all go way back to

Iam going now as the pain has sucked me so far down

And this was how I was feeling and thinking at this point and I forgot I wrote this and then I has been well very, very unwell very, very unwell that either it will, serve more of a purpose than it has since August 14, 2022

it is now August 15, 2022 @ 626PM I did not have much rest and I am not sure how much sleep I had over night but I was active at around 930am