August 7 -- Is this my end -- as I am in level 9 pain and I now do not have a doctor as a result

Okay I have finally decided the DEATH is the ONLY OPTION REMAINING ME, and I am TRULY SAD AND SORRY AS MY LEGS NO LONGER WORK AS THEY ONCE DID AND i HURT ALL THE DAMN TIME NOW AS EVERYTHING HAVE BECOME A BULLSHIT STORY

THE TRUTH IS I HAVE LEFT A WHILE AGO AND YET YOU ALL WANTED ME TO STAY AND SUFFER


FOR YOU AS YOURN AMUSEMENT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THE PAIN AND SUFFERING I GET TO DEAL WITH DAILY


NO MORE


NO THE PAIN IS INTENSE AND THEY WAY THEY SEE IT ALL AS THIS IS MY END DAY


AND i HOPE THAT EVERYONE GETS JUST ( ONE ) DAY JUST ( ONE ) DAY AS I GET EVERYDAY


AND NOW YOU WILL SAY ( WELL I DIDN'T KNOW LUCIEN / THE MAD HATTER WAS IN PAIN AS HE LOOKED ALWAYS HAPPY )


ON THE STREETS I AM LOOKING HAPPY AS GOD HELPS AND ONCE I ENTER MY HOUSE THE PAIN BEGINS AGAIN AND INCREASES AND THEN i FIND i HAVE VERY FEW PEOPLE ( FRIENDS ) IN MY LIFE


i HAVE TO END THIS AS THIS IS WAY TO MUCH PAIN AS I SEE ALL THE PAIN IS NEVER LEAVING


SO I AM AND I AM TAKING MY LIFE -- IT WAS MINE AND IF THIS LIFE IS NOT MINE ANYMORE


So I am going to say a good bye as some of you really tried to save me

Good bye everyone



REMEMBER YOU ALL WIN AS THIS IS WAY TO HARD AS YOU TTHINK AS THIS IS LIKE I NEED ALL MY MEDS TO GET ME A FEW HOURS OF SOMEWHAT PAIN LESS AND IT MADE LESS ENERGY


i HAVE BECOME A TOTAL PAIN IN MY THE ASS OF EVERYONE -- AND A FEW MONTHS AGO WAS NOT LIKE THIS AS THEN YOU KNOW SOMETHING REALLY CHANGED IN MY LIFE AND WORLD EVEN JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO

FNM

LETS PUNISH ME AS I SHOULD BE PUNISHED


AND PUNISHED HARD AS I WORKED FOR YOU FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS AS THE MAD HATTER EXPERIENCE YOU NEVER SLOWED DOWN TO SEE WHO i WAS OR WHAT I WASN'T AND TODAY I SEE NO POING OF ANY OF THIS AND DEATH SEEMS A BIT BETTER THAN A SLOW PAIN AS I AM ALWAYS TIRED AS i AM NO LONGER EATING AS I


HAVE A HARD TIME SINCE THE SYSTEM ( you ) ALL ORGANIZED TO HAVE ALL MY TEETH REMOVED IN ONE SESSION AND WITH ZERO FREEZING


For 5 long years at times ( COVID 19 ) 2020-- 2022 and I am beat and I am done as this was way to much and this

You all seem to want me to DIE so yup tonight I kill myslef as this shit no longer makes zero sense to me as I know that someone has been in this place ( apt / house ) numerous times either dropping off things or taking things this time it was my key to my front door that I just replaced -- and that is my


LAST STRAW as the rest of the stuff and you have been hurting me for a very long period in my life and world


I am done and I still have no actual idea as who they are as this started on day 1 when I first moved into my house I have been in for almost 6 year as no more as the Province now says that they will move me and I am now ready as I am finally losing my fucken mind in her e and it is not the clutter it is the mental games (THEY) have been playing with me for over the last few years as I am scared at times as what the hell lives her I have asked for help and I don't know what i need anymore as i have been so beat to shit by the system and I no longer wish to see any more people at all as you all did this unto me and I don't even think you are even aware to th epain and the stress the pain and my sufferring I have ungone over the last few years

besides me and I have no idea as maybe it is some kind of WITCH thing that maybe D set on me as I have a fw weeks of super negative place and I have not had any energy at all as this mental shit has been driving me crazy and no one give as shit



More reading as I am done


The Light II of The World – Medium






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