Day 31 Of The Slave Contract, 64 Days Of My Awakening

Even in the Bible GOD GAVE his "people" a Sabbath *Day Off* for Rest and Worship --- I on the OTHER HAND need to walk 3.2 km for 7 pills -- Hell I (GET) to do this daily rain, sun, freezing (it was -11c this time)


I Have The Worst Mental Health (CHALLENGE) Called Schizoaffective Disorder and I have to GET my "MEDICINE" -- this isn't like I need soft-drinks or broccoli --I need MY MEDICINE to stay in the community


And I take my MEDICINE --- and Show Up for a (INJECTION) every 28 days


They say to NOT WALK AS MUCH -- THEN (MAKE ME WALK)

How does this make sense?


I HAVE (NOT) Broken a LAW -- AND YET

I have a Doctor who says (the system needs to earn (MY) = TRUST), then makes me earn theirs


How does this make sense?


Most people with this Mental Health (CHALLENGE) can't do WHAT I DO?

1) MEDCATION MANAGEMENT

2) LIVE ON THEIR OWN -- NO ISSUES BOUNCING MONEY OVER 3 YEARS

3) WALK AND MAKE OTHERS HAPPY / Contribute to Society

4) STAY BOTH == "CLEAN AND SOBER"

5) DEAL AS BEST POSSIBLE WITH A 4CM X 4 CM X 1.5 CM deep AT ONE POINT --HOLE IN MY TAIL BONE / Coccxy that resulted in a MAJOR SURGERY in April that would reopen and have to then heal on its own

6) SEE AND ATTEMPT TO DEAL WITH 12 DEAD BODIES iN THE HOSPITAL IN 47 DAYS AT THE TIME OF THE SURGERY


I am now depressed

I am now sad

I JUST WANT TO MAKE (YOU HAPPY) sorry


This round of Pharmacolgy Changes are Punishing me HARD


I sometimes DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE


This round of Pharmacology Changes are Punishing me HARD


I FOUND

GOD / JESUS (my faith) (i Jesus / God found me in a Prison Cell for 12 / 911 calls --23 hours a day) for 88 days -- this is torture -- I am NOT blaming


I am not perfect


WHAT THE HELL I TRY MY BEST

I FAILED my TEAM, this weekend -- Who Have NOW PUT so much Pressure on me


I am NOT YOU -- I am a HUMAN BEING with a MENTAL HEALTH (CHALLENGE)

HEY LETS CHANGE (ILLNESS) to (CHALLENGE)



AS THEN THE PERSON HAS ---- HOPE


AND HOPE IN MENTAL HEALTH IS KINDA -- IMPORTANT

JUST KINDA AS ONCE HOPE IS GONE


WELL


SO IS SPIRIT

AND ONCE SPIRIT IS GONE


SO IS LIFE



i CAN (NOT) even kill myslef as a direct result of my === (FAITH)


SO I GET TO BE THE


WALKING DEAD


THANK YOU FOR THIS I THINK

i CAN (NOT) even kill myself as a direct result of my === (FAITH)


GOT TO GO MY TEA IS READY

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