Does "Your" Pleasure (Happiness) Justify "My" Pain & Suffering ??

I have been going through the paces, living in a place I haven't actually wanted me to be not into anymore. Since I donned the first Mad Hatter Outfit on September 12, 2017. Some 22 months ago, making this one of the longest J.O.B.'s I have ever had, and it is like a J.O.B. as I have customers (free loaders) I DO NOT CHARGE (donations are beautiful however) as this is something that need they service I provide (for free) that triggers positive "neruochemicals" like "dopamine" and "serotonin" in their brains via the trigger of a mirror neuron process called exchopraxia

On September 10, 2018 I was allowed into a kind of club called the "Invega Sustenna'' group, this medication (yes it is a medication) as is Tylenol for headaches, or muscle aches .

Invega Sustenna is used (on me) for the treatment and management of SAD yup Schizophrenic Affective Disorder, a Mental Health Challenge (note the language change) from illness to CHALLENGE

My theory is it is better to be CHALLENGED than ILL when you are "allowed" to awaken as it is way more positive way to be

And YES I am about to get massively challenged and it won't be from the SAD it will be by a Physical Health Challenge called a "bedsore/pressure sore/ ulcer "HOLE" that was discovered on October 15, 2018 some 9 months ago on my coccyx, also known as the tailbone, is a small, triangular bone resembling a shortened tail located at the bottom of the spine. It is composed of three to five coccygeal vertebrae or spinal bones.

Treatment for what was a small "HOLE" would go from bad to worse as a individual in the Province of Alberta with a Mental Health Challenge gets treated like a bad disease even by so called HEALTH CARE PROFESSIONALS

Treatment was at East Edmonton Health Center from October 25, 2018 and the pain went from Mild and Manageable to INSANELY Nasty on December 8, 2018 I was to find out why as my personal physician wouldn't / couldn't believe i was in such pain however on December 8, it was discovered by me that a Iodine base cream called Iodosorb which some of the worst side effects that the product web site says see your doctor are

1) severe rash, and

2) very bad pain

I wasn't informed of any products that ((they)) the treatment team were using on my until that night

Keep in mind I still hadn't been "allowed" to see a [WOUND DOCTOR] this would occur on December 31, 2018 and she would do a biopsy while i was awake and the pain was brutal, and then she said "It is like nothing i have seen before"

This was not at all reassuring as in fact i was terrified as it was now the holidays and everything was shut down and i was in severe pain ''she comforted me by stroking my head, saying "It will be OK" --then she was gone"

I felt like a puppy it was disheartening to say the least

And it was only about to get worse, as the new year arrived

And I wish I was joking

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