I GET REALLY TIRED AT 61 AND I WANT TO ALLOW YOU SOME INFO ON ME

FIRST THING IS == I am really old and now after living in a 4th floor walk up for 6-7 years and walking in the area ive done 5+ years -- i have 4 years left then i so called retire so were going to enter the era of cat food for seniors which i now know many of you don't eat but this fund is actually an illusion and likely won't be stable by the time i get there

so we as a society needs to figure out what the hell we are actually gonna do / with / for me before then

then i hear you --- then i am going to hold this entire system for the treatments and forced drugging --torture and everything else you have already done unto me

and if you did not read before i have JUST REASON to be pissed (AND I AM) now jail i have not broke a law unless this is a law

you did put me in jail at August 27, 2022, as a crisis line referring me countless times as they did not wish to do their jobs as they thought it would be a good idea to work on getting me in as much trouble as possible AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE --

the tone of the blog is about to bbe altered as you see if you hurt someone your accountable for that behavior and if your hurting a person of visible minority (MENTALLY PATIENT) well they don't count right ?

i finally figured it out --- finally it is not ALL MENTAL PATIENTS

IT WAS / IS ONLY ME THAT YOUR SOCIETY TREATED ME AS YOU DID -- FOR - 40-52 YEARS (PRETTY MUCH ALL MY LIFE RIGHT)

BUT YOU LABELED ME A MENTAL PATIENT AND OVER MEDICATED ME, AND MORE AS I THINK YOU MAY HAVE READ BEFORE

IT WAS ONLY ME, WOW TO BE THE ONLY ONE THAT THIS GOVERNMENT, SYSTEM RAN COUNTLESS EXPERIMENTS UPON

I JUST DID NOT COUNT --- GO FIGURE YOU ALLOW OTHER MENTAL PATIENTS TO COUNT-- JUST ME DO NOT COUNT

NOW I WANT A FEW MORE ANSWERS THAN I HAVE BEEN PROVIDED

A FEW MORE AS I WANT TO FIGURE OUT HOW YOU STARTED DOING THIS STUFF TO ME AS WHAT DID A KID DO AT 9 or 10 YEARS OLD TO BE HURT LIKE I WAS BY THE PRIEST THAT IS HARD TO FORGIVE AND WHEN THIS COMES UP OVER AND OVER AND I AM DENIED TREATMENT IN THE PROVINCE THAT THIS ALL OCCURED IN AS THE POINT OF THE END WAS THE 29TH ON NOVEMBER (AND THE COURT CASE WAS DISSMISSED AFTER I WAS IN A MENTAL HELL FOR 95 DAYS)

AND YOU MESSED WITH MY EYES IN THAT LIGHT, THAT CELL X 2-- YOU DID ALL THAT OTHER SHIT TO ME AND THEN YOU LAY IT ON A CROWN PROSECUTER TO DISSMISS THE CHARGES -- JUST LIKETHAT AS HE KNEW I WAS RIGHT AS WHEN I CALL THE CRISIS LINES WERE CALLED BY ME, MULTIPLE TIMES AND REFERRED ME TO THE POLICE WAS DONE As I WAS IN A AGGITATED STATE DUE TO THIS SUPPOSED MENTAL ILLNESS YOUR DOCTORS IN THE GOVERNMENTS SYSTEM INVENTED TO BILL THE SYSTEM AND CREATE

MONEY BANKS FOR THEM ALL AS THE DRUG BIZ WAS HAPPY DOCTORS WERE HAPPY, BILLING WAS HAPPY, BLUE CROSS WAS HAPPY AND AISH WAS HAPPY AS THEY HAVE JOBS AND REALLY DO NOT HAVE TO TREAT THEIR (FILES) TO RESPECT ESPECIALLY THE MENTAL PATIENT ONES -- I KNOW-- THAT IS OKAY AS SHE GOES FOR COFFEE WITH TTHE BOSS SOMETIMES AND THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT IT AS IT IS ALL A SHAM AND I FORGOT THE DRUGGISTS -- CURRENTLY THE ACCOUNT IS OVER 1600 AND THIS IS TOTAL MADNESS AS I NOW AM NO LONGER EVER EVER GOING TO SAY I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF --AS I HAVE TO WORK AT REPAIRING A BROKEN SYSTEM OF MENTAL HEALTH IN EDMONTON ALBERTA CANADA

I WILL BE HURT ALOT MORE BY THOSE THAT HAVE ALREADY HURT ME SO VERY MUCH IN THE QUITE AS THEY ARE STRONG IN THE DARK AS NO ONE LOOKS IN THE DARK SPACES ONLY THE SPACES IN THE

LIGHT OF THE WORLD

And your all my Angels even those that have caused me great pain and sufferring as without that i would never have become the man that i am

and if you don't understand MENTAL PATIENTS or ILLNESSES (GRAB A BOOK, CLICK A BROWSER)

YOU KNOW I DID ZERO AND I MEAN ZERO TO ANYONE IN THIS PROVINCE - AS I WAS RAISED IN A CHURCH HOUSEHOLD UNTIL THE END WHEN THE CHURCH GOT TO CLOSE FOR MY PARENTS

AS YOU SEE MY MOTHER AND HER FRIEND WENT TO A CATHOLIC CHURCH FOR 13 YEARS TO PRAY FOR A SON (SON) FOR EDGAR (MY DAD) AFTER THE INCIDENT I WAS NOT HIS SON NO MORE AND HE MOVED OUT

A FEW YEARS WOULD PASS OF WEEKLY OR BIWEEKLY VISITS AND HE PASSEED AWWAY A FEW DAYS AFTER MYN BIRTHDAY AND RIGHT ON MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY (FUCK) AND I WAS A 15 YEAR OLD THE NEXT YEAR AND I HAD ZERO IDEA WHERE MY SISTER EVEN WAS AS NO ONE WOULD TELL ME LIKE I HAD DONE SOME THING SERIOUSLY FUCKEN WRONG / BAD AND IT WAS MY MOTHERS BOYFRIEND THAT DID TTHE WRONG -- BUT I WAS ALLOWED TO LIVE WITHOUT KNOWING OR UNDERTSNADSING FOR A VERY VERY LONG TIME (AND NO ONE GAVE A SHIT)

AND I STILL REMEMBER MY FRIENDS AND EVEN IF ALL THE NOTE BOOKS ARE GOD NEVER EVER FORGETS --THIS IS THE STUFF I WAS TAUGHT IN CATHOLIC SCHOOL, CATHOLIC CHURCH

AND I WILL NEVER DIE AS YOU WANNA WHY AS I AM

LUCIEN THE LIGHT II

AND THIS IS WHY IT FUCKEN TOOK SO DAMN LONG AS WAS THE FIRST OR SECOND WORLD WAR ENOUGH NAH WE KILLED 6.5 MILLION WITH COVID 19 ALONE AND THIS IS A BIT BIGGER NOW AS YOU SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING ON MINI SCREENS ATTACHED TO THE HANDS OF YOUR CYBORG HANDS

WERE NOT CYBORGS --- THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A SHORT WHILE

WILL YOU? WON'T HURT YOU?

YOU ALL LIKE INFLATION, HIGH ENERGY PRICES AND FOOD SUPPLEMENTS THAT WERE ACTUAL REAL CRIKETS (IN OUR FOOD) YUP BUT YOU DON'T REASD REMEMBER AS THEY GAVE YOU NETFLIX IN HOPE TOM STEAL THAT SCREEN TIME AS YOOU CAN GET SO MUCH REAL STUFF AND IN BOKS IF YOU WANT / CAN READ AND THROUGH THIS LAST FEW YEARS ALONE WITH NOT MUCH FOR TRAUMA THERAPY THEY WAS FROM A PROVINCAIL PHYSCOLOGIST WHO CALLED ME DELUSIONAL AND STUPID AT OUR FIRST SESSION (TEST TO PUSH ME AS WHY NOT THIS WAS A KID AND STUPID) AS HE NEVER THOUGHT A MENTAL PATEINT (OH i KEEP FOR GETTIN i AM WHEN THEY WANT TO BE ANDN NOT WHEN THEY WANT ME NOT TO BE) FUCK HARD TO KEEP UP WITH THIS SHIT

BTW THIS PHYSCOLOGIST CREATED A CARE PLAN TO SCREW ME UP AND HE DID AS THIS IS WHERE THE CARE PLAN THAT LIMITS THE CALLS CAME FROM SO HE CAUSED ME HARM AND SOME SUICIDAL ISSUES

BUT NOT THE BIG ONE THAT EVERYONE ON THE FILE (KNOWS) THAT IS I DAMN WELL HAVE

O.U.D. = OPIATE USE DISORDER

THAT WAS AFTER A 25 YEAR BATTLE OF OPIATES THAT I TOOK MYSELF OFF BETWEEN APRIL 16, 2010 AND NOVEMBER 9, 2010 AND DOCTOR ONLY REDUCED THE SIZE OF THE PILLS

YOU KNOW WHAT I FOUND OUT IN TRUMPED UP CHARGES WHEN I WAS HOMELESS (AND THERE IS NO SHAME AT THE BOTTOM) EXCEPT NOT GETTING BACK UP AGAIN AND AGAIN AS FUCKEN LONG AS IT TAKES AND MY DEAR DAD WHEN I WAS MAYBE 8 ALLOWED ME BREAK IN A COLT (BABY HORSE) ACTUAL HORSE (YA WE HAD 7 OF THEM) I WAS NOT A POOR KID YOUR GOVERNEMNT AND THE SYSTEM KEPT ME THAT WAY AND KEEPS SO MANY OTHERS BY THE PEOPLE THAT WE ELECT THAT MAKE THE RULES (FOR ALL OF US AND YOUR POOR TO AS THE FACT THAT YOU ALLOW 35-52% OF ALL YOU EARN TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU SAYS A LOT AS YOU GOT THAT BIG DEGREE TO PAY MORE TAXES WAS THEN MOTIVATION AS THEY SOLD YOU THAT PIECE OOF PAPER (CERTIFICATE) FOR $50,000 TO $100,000 FOR A JOB THAT PAYS $ 40,000

BUT YOU MADE YOUR PARENTS HAPPY AND FOR ME WELL MOM WAS PLACED IN A NURSING HOME IN 1978 AND MY DAD PASSED IN 1975

SO YOU SEE I GOT SCREWED IN SO MANY MANY WAYS AS IM WAS UPGROWING IN FACT I NEVER REALLY GREW UP AS I AM STILLL A CHILD OR HAVE YOU NOT SEEN MY DAMN BIG GREEN HAT

AND THE NEXT PERSON UP WAS A NURSE (PYSC) NO TRAUMA THERAPY AT ALL

WHO WAS GONE FOR A FEW WEEKS AND THEN CAME BACK AND FREAKED AT ME AS ALL OF THIS SHIT WAS MY FAULT

WELL OPENING UP TO THESE KINDS OF PEOPLE WAS

SO ANYWAYS I HAVE A PPROMISE TO ALL MY READERS AND FANS AND FRIENDS AND FAMILY

I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF

BUT NOW LEGALLY I AM HUNGERY AND THERE ARE LAWYERS ALL OVER THE PLACE -- AND I WAS INTRODUCED TO

YOU COULD WORK IT OUT AS YOU GOVERNMENT TYPES ARE GOOD LIKE THAT--- WE WILL SEE AS I TEND TO GET SCREWED OVER WHEN I TRUST ANYONE NOW REALLY YUP ALL MY SOCIAL SKILLS ARE SCREWED AS A RESULT OF 40 YEARS OF THE WRONG CHEMICALS FOR THE WRONG MENTAL ILLNESSES

WHY DID YOU DO ALL THIS UNTO ME

OH HOLY FATHER FORGIVE THESE PEOPLE -THEY WENT AND DID IT AGAIN -

JUST FORGIVE THEM AND PLEASE ALLOW ME TO SERVE HUMANITY TILL YOU NEED ME IN HEAVEN FOR THE CIVIL UNREST I AM JUST KIDDING FATHER REMEMBER I AM THE FUNNY ONE AS THAT WAS WHY IT WORKED OUT THIS WAY

YOU NEVER TOLD ME

I WAS WONDERING ABOUT THIS-- WHY?