I Give Up On A Few Friends That I Have Been Attempting
To get to work with --- one is just damn insane as he is a resident of a state run mental hospital that thinks he is setting up a energy drink biz
He offered me a $100 a month to be around to bounce things off of
it was like I was a slave as he started ti dictated what he wanted and when and that was NOW
I refused as I need the money for a sofa so I can sleep again and I will physically suffer now and that is what he wanted
I am done AK39
Next Pam
Sorry but BYE
You attempted to sabotage me today over a whimsical idea AI had with me
Remember I am a schizophrenic's and I have been couch surfing in my own living room for 4 and a half months and my nerves were fared with all the health issues i have (had) and then you needed to add COVID 19
Like how much stress and pressure am I supposed to take before I say "SCREW YOU ALL"
Now I need $150 and I hope it arrives over night
as then there is my Godly friend Mr. Elvis who has invested many dollar's in my ass to keep me going and I don't get the deal with it now
I am just so damn tired as it has been 4.5 months and I am in hell
it is really weird what sleep deprivation can do to a human animal
Like I am really a mess * like I wasn't before huh?"2
And I need to stay focused and [positives as I represent this town we all are allowed to call our home Edmonton --- and it is a incredible and kind city
That is why I do not understand any of this as i feel like once again I am being punished (was I really this bad when i drank 7 years 7 months and 17 days ago) haven't I worked off the damn bad shit i could of done
this is really fucked up ---as all I want is a decent night of sleep please
4 & 1/2 months with shit sleep 2-3 a night and you want me to function fuck what horror were you last watching
This is a fucken nightmare already
Just stop it
seems that once the circadian clock gets off set everything in a human animal life gets so screwed up and it happened fast / slow / hell who knows
Pam said " it looks like you were in a war "
That will boost me right
fuck friends like I had