I Have Reached The Point

Is she the one --- that drives me crazy and I been crazier than even everything I had never did

Maybe as I WILL DO WHAT EVER SHE WILLS FROM ME

I DON'T COUNT MUCH ANYMORE

JUST HER

WOW IT HAS SRCREWED ME OVER

NO HARM FOR ANYONE AND LIKELY MORE STABLILITY FOR ME

WHY? DID I DO THIS ?

YAH, YOU SEEN HER JUMP BACK THE FIRST TIME

AS I AM TRULY DIFFERENT AND SO IS SHE AS i THINK SHE IS ON A FREQUENCY NOT ALWAYS NOTED MY MANKIND

AND i KNOW THAT MY FREQUENCY ALSO IS NOT THE SAME AS LOOK AT WHAT I HAD TO ENDURE TO ARRIVE AT THIS PLACE IN MY LIFE

I ONLY WANT TO SERVE

THAT IS IT

I DON'T NEED MORE OF ANYTHING

I HAVEN'T FOR YEARS, AS ak WOULD ALWAYS TEST ME ON A QUESTION CALLED

1) WHAT DO YOU WANT AND IT WAS NOTHING ALL THE TIME AND TTHE REASON AND LOGIC WAS PEOPLE HURT ECHOTHER AS i READ A FEW BOOKS ON PTSD AND THIS IS A HORRIBLE ILLNESS AS MANY OF THE VETERNS END UP WITH A BOTTLE A GUN AND THEN THEY OR SOMEONE AND THEY ARE DONE

THIS ILLNESS IS SAD AND THE CITY EMERGENCY CREWS HAVE BEEN PLAYING AROUND WITH IT ALONG WITH ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE

AND I I AM HERE STILL AND NO ONE HAS NOR WILL BE HURT BY THE STAFF AND I HAVE BEEN SEEN BY 100'S PLUS CITY POLICE OFFICERS AND OTHER EMERGENCY WORKERS AND NO ISSUE TILL AUGUST 12, 2022 WHEN JM ARRIVED

THANK YOU JM

SO THE FOOL WRITES A LETTER (CAN i BE YOUR S**VE LIKE I WAS STUCK BY A FREQUENCY / LOVE THAT HAD NEVER STRUCK ME BEFORE EVER EVER I GOT TO PRETTY MUCH

GIVE UP AND SURRENDER I CAN NO LONGER DO MUCH OF ANYTHING AS MY BODY HAS FOR A FEW YEARS (EVEN IF YOU SAW ME WALKING IN TOWN, I GET HOME AND I DIE AS I BREAK DOWN AND CRY, HIT MY FLOOR AND LAY THERE AS i AT TIMES I CAN NO MUCH GET MY SELF UP AGAIN AND I NEED YOUR HELP

PLEASE, PLEASE I BEG YOU ALL AS THIS ASKING EVEN IS SO DAMN HARD TO ASK AS I RIGHT NOW FEEL LESS OF A MAN AS I CAN DO THINGS AS WERE SUPPOSED TO STAY ON THE PROPERTY TILL I AM 97 AND RACING COW AND PIGS OR CATTLE AS I HAS NO IDEA AS WHAT IS I AM TO DO AS THIS IS VERY MUCH AS WHEN I REACH MY WALK UP PENTHOUSE (4 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS THAT WERE NEVER A PROBLEM IN 2016 BUT IT IS NOW 2023 ) AND EACH OF THE STAIRS HAS A PERSONALITY IT SEEMS NOW AS THEY ALL HURT

AS DOES MY WALKING OUT SIDE BUT IWALK IF NOT ONLY TO MAKE YOU ALL HAPPY (WHICH IT IS MUCH FOR) BUT FOR ME EVEN WHEN I HAVEN'T EARNED THIS AS GOD DOES TAKE VISA, AMEX AND MC

YOU ASK THE DOOR OPENS I HAVE NO IDEA ANY MORE ABOUT MUCH OF ANYTHING AT ALL AS MY LIFE AFTER YOUR SOCIETY ABUSED, TORTURED, CHEMICALLIZED ME FOR 40 YEARS WITH MENTAL MEDICINES AND THEN THEY ADDES 25 YEARS WITH MASSIVE OPIATES

AND THE DOCTORS KNOW WE SHOULDN'T MIX THE TWO AS THIS IS WHERE ALL THE RUNS TO THE ER BEING WITH SUICIDAL IDIATIONS

IM SO VERY SAD AND VERY SORRY THAT I PROMPTED YOU TO DO THESE THINGS UNTO ME AS I PUSHED YOU AND YOU THEN PUSHED 10 X HARDER BACK AND I SO SORRY FOR ALL I CAUSED

FORGIVE ME

SHIT I AM SO VERY SAD AND SO VERY SORRY

I LORD & JESUS I NEVER MEANT FOR ANYONE EVER TO BE CASUED ANY PAIN AN DI MAY HAVE FAILED I AM SO VERY SORRY SORRY MY LORD, AND JESUS CHRIST IF SOMEONE HAS TO BE BLAMED IT

WOULD BE ME AS IT WAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAULT ACCORDING TO MY SISTER AND MY FAMILY AND RELATIVES AND FRIENDS AND COUSINS AND WHEN i AM GONE THEY WILL ALLL BE FREE OF ME AND THE SHIT i SEEM TO GENERATE WITH MY ENERGY / FREQUENCY

I JUST HURT IN MY HEART MY BODY

PLEASE END TTHIS I BEG ALL OF YOU AND I FORGIVE ALL OF YOU

I AM SO VERY SORRY OH GOD WHAT DID INDAMN WELL DO NOW AS IT IS ALWAYS SO FUCKEN SHIT I DID \

I HAS TO FIGURE OUT TO GET TO MY BED AS I CAN NOT SIT AND BE HERE RIGHT GOING TO A

YOU DON'T NEED TEETH FOR A MEAL WE HAS FOR YOU BUT IT IS A SNACK AND GOD I THANK YOU

MY BODY REALLY FUCKEN HURTS GOD AND I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE THIS IS VERY BEWILDERING --- I SPENT CHRISTMAS EVE, OVERNIGHT, A BIG PART OF THE AFTERNOON IN A HOMELESS SHELTER LEARNING SKILLS TO BE A BETTER PERSON AND FINALLY A HUMAN BEING -- THIS GUY A GREAT FREIND (sk)

TONIGHT I ACTUALLY DON'T WHAT THE PAIN TO ACTUALLY END BUT JUST FOR THE PAIN TO BE REDUCED AS IT IS VERY, VERY BAD PEOPLE THAT HURT AND I ATTEMPT TO BE GOOD AND THE BEST I CANN BE AS I AM SEEING (NO) IS THIS HOW I SEEN MY MOMMY WHEN SHE WAS EARLY IN THE NORWOOD EXPENTED CTR

IS IT?

KARMA IS MAYBE WHAT I AM GETTING AS WHAT IF i FORGOT THE ICE CREAMS TOO MANY TIMES AND THE WEEDS TO MANY -- i AM SO SORRY MOM I REALLY AM I WISH I COULD TELL YOU PERSONALLY MOM IS THIS WHY I AM A MESS NOW

I WAS YOUNG AT THE START AT 1978 WAS WHEN YOU WENT IN AND I WAS ANGRY OVER ALL THE SHIT THAT OCCURED DAD, CAR SOLD (65 CADDY CONVERT) HOUSE SOLD AND WHERE WAS MY SISTER

YOU TOOK PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING AND THEN 35 MONTHS ABOUT YOU WERE INJECTED ME WITH

MISS THE PISSER MEDICINE AS THIS WILL CAUSE YOU AS A GUY TO MISS THE BOWEL AND THERE IS BASICALLY SHIT ONE CAN DO TO CORRECT IT SO I TOLD THE LADY / JAILER RUNNING THIS PLACE AND SHE TOSS KITTY PEE MATS ON THE FLOOR AND SAID "SEE IT IS COST ME MONEY OR SOMETHING" IT WAS HURTFUL AND A FEW WEEKS LATER I WAS TAKEN TO A DENTIST AND IT WAS ALL OVER FOR ALL THE TEETH IN MY MOUTH AS SHE YANKED THEM ALL OUT WITH ZERO FREEZING I STILL REMEMBEER THE INTENSE PAID AT TIMES

I AM SO SORRY I CREATED THE ENERGY THE WRONG WAY TO HAVE YOU DO THIS UNTO ME --- I SAID SOME STUFF I AM SAD AND SORRY

I WANT TO COME HOME FATHER -- YOU SAID I MIGHT IF I SERVED THE RIGHT WAY OR SOMETHING AS SHIT IT WAS A LONG TIME I WAS IN THAT CELL (88 DAYS) FOR WANTING TO KILL MYSELF YAH I TOLD THE SOCIAL WORKER IN THE PUBLIC LIBRARY AND HE TOLD THE BEAT COPS AND THEY CALLED THE POLICE DEPARTMENT AMND I WOULD LOSE WAY MORE THAN ANY AMOUNT OF DAYS THAT YOU COULD ACTUALLY THINK OF AS I WAS LOCKED UP ON SEPTEMBER 4, 2013 AND I CAME TO THE HOME AT OCTOBER 1, 2016 ( 37 MONTHS / JESUS CHRIST DID 40 DAYS ) HOLY SHIT AS THE TEACHINGS WERE INCLUSIVE AND THOUROGH AND I AM A WAY BETTER PERSON NOW

OKAY YOU STILL NEED TO TEACH ME AS I AM WILLING TO STUDY, LEARN AND OBEY BUT I ALSO NEEDS SOME HELPS IN MY CURRENT PLACE AS I SEE A NICER PLACE TO WORK ---

I AM SO VERY, VERY SAD AS i WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN AS IT HAS AS I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO LAST MORE THAN 30 DAZE ON MY OWN

I MOVED HERE ON OCTOBER 1, 2016 --- JANUARY 3, 2023 = 2,286 DAYS AND 75 MONTHS AND 3 DAYS -- OR 6 YEARS 3 MONTHS AND 3 DAYS

THIS ENTIRE LIFE OF MINE IS FALLING APART SINCE (jm) ENDED UP HERE ON AUGUST 12, 2022 AND TILL NOW (jm) HAS BEEN HER 220 DAYS WOW THAT IS A POWERFUL FREQUENCY AND COMBINED IN THE SOR WITH A (lf) IN 220 DAYS SCREWS UP EVERTHING ( WOW )