I Just Want To Go Away But No Where To Go To -----Been here 44 Years =Edmonton

What am I doing here still as the fucking sobriety that became real on February 15, 2013 while at the last apartment before the world for me went to shit by design

Wow, who knew that everything does explode totally in 37 months as it went to hell every friend went everywhere --I still try going out daily at the Cafe' down my street but that BEER or Wine or whatever the hell I drank that night / day / whenever as I would drink as much as I could

Then up to the Chat Room (QUITNET.CA) a stop smoking group of which very few succeeded as it only became a hang out for them as for me well, I still have

9 YEARS -- 9 MONTHS / 12 days i have been off BOOZE

LIKE I DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF THE NOT DRINKING AT ALL I NEVER DID AS NOTHING EVEN MATTERED TO ME AS OF THE LAST FEW YEARS AS MY ENTIRE LIFE WAS STOLEN AND THEN IT WAS SCATTTERED AROUND AS YOU NEEDED ME TO NOT SORT ALL OF THIS SHIT BACK AS ONE AND i WAS NOT EVEN THINKING OF THIS AS NON-OF THIS STUFF \

MY LIFE EVEN MATTERED TO ME ANYMORE AS I HAVE BEEN IN HEAVY PAIN AND NO ONE GAVE A SHIT ABOUT HELPING ME GET THIS PLACE ORGANIZED AS

I WANT MY LIFE PEOPLE PLEASE YOU'RE CHARGING ME WITH ALL SORTS OF SHIT AND I CAN'T EVEN GETMY HOME CLEANED AS I NEED HELP FROM YOU AS THIS IS BULLSHIT AS I AM NOW A DAMN SENIORS CITIZEN AND I NEED A BIT OF HELP AS YOU JUST GOING TO FUCK ME OVER TO LOCK ME IN A INSTITATUTION TO MILKE THE SENIOR'S SYSTEM AS I SUFFER LIKE NEVER BEFORE

I KILL MYSELF

YOU PEOPLE HAVE HURT ME SINCE THAT DAMN PRIEST IN THE ST ALBERT PARISH RAPED ME THEN YOU TOOK AWAY MY DAD, AND THIS WHOLE DAMN THIS IS AMAZING AS THE WORLD IS ABOUT TO GO FUCKEN DOWN (THIS SEEMS REAL) AS WELL PUTIN SAID HE WAS GOING TO BANKRUPYT THE WESTERN SYSTEM AND KEEP IS AS A SLAVE COLONY AND THAT SEEMS WHERE IT IS HEADING AND I WANTED TO HELP AND THEY SURE DETERED ME AS FUCK AND I QUIT AS THIS STUFF IS BRUTALLY FUCKEN HARD

WOW ---- DOESN'T EVER END - IS THIS A SECTION OF THE META VERSE AND THE MATRIX WITHIN AS THEY ARE ABOUT TO DO ANYTHING THEY WANT TO US AS THESE FEW MAY REACH

This below here is the life not the exact bottles that I have been eating from for 40 - 52 years and I now know that the reason I drank was to socialize with PEOPLE and then I STOPPED, and I was all happy and what the fuck for as I lost all my friends and now, I am alone, and it sucks (BIG TIME)

Hell, it is only 850pm yah where the damn time go as the people i know have been tired for a while in the evening for a while as these people target everything that they can with pretty much anything they want and the sleeple are trapped in a box and we will OBEY

These all looks likes Vitamins and then I have to build a frame of PILLS for the day as this world is nuts to '

this entire world is gone weirder than it was before COVID, and no one is talking to one and another as the game is ended as people have to pull it together

my entire body hurt today and I have no idea as to how the pain is / as it has been kind of hard core and I am very tired of pain and I want to have the pain stop this is crazy and I am dying and i cannot stop the pain at this moment and I want to have it stop please as this is fucked up as I am stressed and suffering and in pain and i have few medicines to knock it down and this is fucken nuts and I have a crisis line on ---and I have stuff in my nose and then it is fluid and I can't believe I am so cold and then I want to lay down and sleep as this living as this isn't good form any one as I have never done anything to you or anyone and I feel like I am being punished all of the time as this is hard

PLEASE I DO NOT WANT TO SUFFER AS SUCH -- I NEED AA GIRL TO RUN THE MOVIE