IAM ALIVE

Late today *this afternoon* it hit me and hit hard, I was a drag as the HOLE had begun advancement on my SOUL - then when I cried and decided I needed to find away out or I was dead it came to me


The Battle may have been forfeited at the early stages BUT the WAR is only about to get going


I don’t want to die, but I want to feel nothing when I am alive I got this idea that in just now ….

Then IT hit me ---- WHO the hell do I think I am I DO NOT get it both ways we as HUMANS feel -- BUT 38 years of drinking really screws up this -process coming out andbYOU see it was not the 12 month anniversariy of the wound I was scared of it was the 80 month anni of NOT drinking that scared me (BIG TIME) as I didn't feel shit for 38 years NOW I FEEL PAIN -- and now I feel all the time


There is more -- but it is going to take years of therapy to fgure out


BUT I AM ALIVE

5 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Q~4~U ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~March 10, 2021 A Plus Post

"I've always felt it was not up to anyone else to make me give my best." ~ Akeem Olajuwon In the last 34 days, I have been reunited with some of my family an incredible cousin and it has opened my hea

34 Days Of Being 60 Years Old And I Actually Feel Well

YOUNGER by 20 Years and I have no idea as to this new fountain of Youth I have stumbled into and maybe it is the fact the drugs are better these "daze" then again I can't do drugs unless there "state"

©2019 by Mad Hatter Experience. Proudly created with Wix.com