July 19, 2022:~ I Can't Bend My Left Knee This Morning as This is The Time of The Suffering' I Go To

You know I have about 7 + hours and ACCESS 24 / 7 ( the egg lady ) gave me 5 minutes the night before the Court Date they triggered and I am in massive pain and once again no one gives a shit if I have to suffer all night as I

Deserve This Right as I make people Smile & Laugh ( so I should suffer ) but why as I hate this as I have done zero to anyone

The pain is very intense -- and I am all alone ( 8 fucken billion humans on this planet ) and I am alone - and I---- Make People Happy

Wow --- should it end right now

I can't because a few people I really do not know might hurt and I do not have this right as the young man who he and his dad had a picture of me would hurt and I can't hurt that family ever as that is how it started with me as a small well RAPE but it was over and had we been a open family and talked about feeling at all instead of things as we didn't all we talked about was

Things -- Pets -- Toys

Not even people -- books dad was always interested in my reading pursuits as this was very important to him as he was working on English and struggling with it and I never knew how bad this was as he wanted to know more as he was always working on the books in our house

GOD I miss my Mom & Dad and my little Sister and well I don't really even know the three kids and I don't know whose issue this is as I am no way to find them as I just don't know

Why are ACCESS 24 / 7 so fucken mean to me and that line in Calgary as there supposed to be there to help people with Mental Illnesses ( it is that mine has gone on for 40 fucken years ) and they want me dead already as this is shit

DIE ALREADY LUCIEN you are bugging the system as you OLD AND USLESS SO FUCKEN DIE

THIS IS WHAT i AM GONNA DO AS

IT WAS THE LADY THAT CALLS HERSELF THE ( EGG LADY as she helped me cook eggs one morning year ago _ ) and NAZAWA

I have done zero to hurt these people or any people and now this society wants me dead and I am thinking I should do this as Destiny couldn't make 10 minutes on a night I was scared on nor could Carolyn as she didn't want to leave a bigger electronic footprint ( like what the fuck is that ) as I am

I never hurt people after I STOPPED DRINKING and when I was drinking well I just don't know as I was usually to far gone to now as this is shit as I feel like I killed someone just now

Even my murderous friend Aaron won't talk to me as this might get him out sooner and I actually hope that it does as

This City Killed Me and one day GOD will remember when this occurred and i am stressed way out of my mind as I way out of my mind and I have not had a single person ( friend ) to talk to all weekend and now into Tuesdays as this is a very sick place this Edmonton place and I wonder why the family picked here for a stopping place as I was hurting no one and have hurt no one ever

Society of Edmonton Alberta Canada where the Holy Roman Catholic Church reisgns they are selling some 43 + 70 churches to pay for all the damn SEXUAL ABUSE THAT THEY CAUSED

AND TO FIX THIS i BET YOU THE CITY OF EDMONTON PUTS ME IN A JAIL CELL TO KEEP ME OUT OF THE WAY AS THEY KNOW 111- 112 ave IS WHERE I WALK AND THEY DO KNOW I LIKELY WON'T STOP SO THEY ARE GOING TO LOCK UP I A CELL WHILE HE IS IN TOWN AND THIS IS STUPID AS i FORGAVE THE ST ALBERT CHURCH AND THE EXACT PRIEST THAT RAPED ME AND BASICALLY TOOK EVERY THING FROM ME

THEY DID THIS TO ME

AND THEN THEY COMPOUNDED IT OVER 40 YEARS