July 24, 2022~ You Know I Tried To Be A Nice Guy And Then I Get BUSTED -- I think 2x maybe 3x maybe

This has been a weird few months as the Truth is no one wants to help me with my Mental Illness ( and it is like I am finally free of the CONTROL ) as I have been trained to take the drugs in the morning and at night

I was a child and after 40 years of the system pumping the wrong meds into my mind / brain / body / at times almost killing me ( twice maybe 3x ) getting me so messed up that I had no ideas where i was ( and this is what THEY HAVE TO DO FOR MY LIFE ) they have to ROB ME OF MY FEELINGS AND THAT WAS TO PREVENT ME FROM FEELING AS I DOM NOW WITH THIS DAMN PTSD THAT I CAN NOT GET ANY HELP WITH AT ALL AS I SEEM LIKE THIS IS WORSE THAT ALL THE REST AS I AM NOW

DEAD INSIDE AND I FEEL NOTHING

A POLICE OFFICER SAID TODAY " SORRY YOU FEEL LIKE THAT "

LIKE WHAT I " DON'T FEEL ALIVE AT ALL NO MORE " AS I AM DEAD INSIDE THIIS IS FROM PTRSD AND FROM ALL THE SHIT I HAVE READ THIS IS HOW I AM GOING TO BE TILL i DIE NOW AS IT KILLED MY SOUL / AND EMOTION SECTIONS OF MY MY HEART I FOULD ( OR SHE FOUND ME ) THIS INCREDIBLE LADY (AND I FEEL DEAD ) AND I CN NO LONGER TALK TO ANYONE AS THE SEX ABUSE LINE HAS ME ON CALL BLOCK, LIKE ( WTF ) THE LINE IN OTTAWA WON'T TAKE MY CALLS AS IT IS TO OFTEN MY CONSULER FLIPPED OUT LAST WEEK AND ACCUSED ME FOR EVERYTHING I AM TRYING TO IMPROVE

TODAY I WENT OUT AND BOUGHT A BAG OF FOOD AND GAVE 90% OF AWAY AND STILL FELT DEAD AND IT DIDN'T HELP NOTHING HELPS

I AM THINKING OF DRINKING AND GETTING HIGH AS NO ONE GIVES A SHIT AS I AM SITTING HERE IN MASSIVE PAIN AND TODAY I WAS ACCUSED OF LEAVING A NASTY AS SHIT MESSAGE ON THIS GIRLS MACHINE -- ONLY ISSUE IS THAT I DON'T EVEN HAVE HER DAMN PHONE NUMBER SO HOW THE FUCK IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE MY STOMACH HURTS AS I NO LONGER AM EATING ANYTHING AS THIS WORLD IS SCREWWED AND I NO LONGER ACTUALLY WANNA BE HERE IN A DAMN

LIE

AS THIS WHOLE FUCKEN DRAMA WERE IN IS A LIE

YAH THE POPE IS HERE AND THIS COSTS THE CANADIAN TAX PAYER $ 28.5 MILLION DOLLARS FOR SECURITY -- AND ZERO BUCKS FOR THE HOMELESS IN THIS COUNTRY AND I FIND OUT THAT THIS CITY HAS A BUDGET OG SOME $ 28 MILLION AND NO ONE IS WATCHING WHERE ITS GOING

this is ELVIS Tax SCAM And I don't mind the scam but he used JESUS and that is crossing the line

I trusted this man and this might me while I did 3 years on mischief charges and all the inmates were laughing at me

LIES AND LIES

I HAVE A FRIEND A LAWYER NAMED

ELVIS WHO SAID HE WOULD HELP ME OUT AT TIMES IF i COULD GET CLEAN AAND STAY CLREAN OFF WEEDS WELL I SMIOKED 3-4 JOINTS SINCE JULY 27, 2020 THAT IS ACTUALLY 1 YEAR 11 MONTHS 27 DAYS

PRETTY MUCH 3-4 JOINTS IN 2 FUCKEN YEARS SO I HEEARD HIM SAY HE WOULD HAVE HIS ASSISANT GET ME A LAPTOP AS MINE WENT DOWN IN JUNE AND HE TOLD ME IT WAS COVERED AND NOW I HAVE MASSIVE DATA BILLS ON THE DAMN CELL AND I USED MY AISH TO COVER THE COMPTER AS I COULDN'T 2WAIT

I HAIT LIARS

THIS WAS THE STRAW THAT PUSHED TO HARD BUT THIS A CATHOLIC MAN WHO PROFESSES THE FAITH AS THIS IS SHIT AS WHEN I FOUND OUT THE REASAN THAT I FEEL APART IN GRADE 5 AND MY DAD MOVED OUT WHENN I WAS 12 AND THE LIFE I HAD FELL APART IT WAS A S A RESULT OF GETTING FUCKEN

RAPED BY A CATHOLIC PRIEST AND NOW THAT BIG SHOT POPE IS HERE AND I DON'T GIVE A SHIT AS THIS SHIT NAS BEEEN TRIGGERING ME FOR A FEW WEEKS AS THIS GUY AND THE CONCEPT IS THEY CAN'T FIX THIS AS IT KILLED MY DAD, AND MY MOM DIED IJN A FUCKEN NURSING HOME AFTER 18 YEARS OF SUFFERING AND I WATCHED THAT TRUTH IS NO FUCKEN APOLOGY IS BRING MY MOM AND MY DAD BACK AND WERE SPENDING 28 MILLION AND THEN THE CHURCH IS SELLING SOME 43 CHURCHES AND ANOTHER 72 LATER AND THEY WILL THEY MISSPEND THE CASH AS THEY DID LAST TIME \

i HAVE NO FAITH IN THIS FAITH AS LIKE ELVIS THEY ARE MADE UP OF LIARS

IF you wanna help me feeds the people on my streets the way is your interact at your bank and lucien@madhatterexperience.com

Anything is helpful as i got screwed today as i gave away my bag of food and lost my keys and the FOB and this is my first one and I have no idea as to how much this is all going to cost me back