July 29, 2022:~ The Greatest Gift I Have Ever Received EVER!

Today I called upon my Sister as I was as the last few stories here and on Medium and I got the BESTEST NEWS in 23 years as for 23 years ( and attempting and finding out what went wrong ) I did and it was a result of my damn step-kid on Christmas 1999 ( 3 days just 3 fucken days after my now X Wife and Her Kid arrived in my country from South Africa yup that is where my self worth was thinking I would never BE GOOD ENOUGH for a girl / lady from my Country ( sad eh? ) and very weird that in 1999 around 8 years after the internet went LIVE and we met ( without pictures on a system called Freenet in November 1997 I remember as that was the month she attached a HOOK IN MY NOSE / was going to say dick but you understand that was November 27, 1997 as it was less than a year after we buried my dear mother who passed on December 22, 1996 ( long time ago I remember because Sue & Dave Taylor [Sue was a Mental Patient that I met in the Misericordia sometime earlier] and I spent Christmas at Sue & Dave's Mom or Dad's place and the mental fuckery also went down at that Christmas Major as it was one of the worst Christmases I think I had ever spent as I sat at the plate of FOOD and my Mind was not there as it was on all the chances and events that I missed with my Dear Mom as a Result of the Alcohol and Weed and yes I went as often as I could I still think in my messed up mind / brain ( from the Alcohol & Weed plus the 100's of Mental Medications that I was placed and tried on

But that shit was the past and will be out in more detail when I figure out myn personal book about my life as enough people seem to want a copy of a BOOK of MY LIFE so I sorta gonna attempt this ( project ) but there are a bunch of projects that I am still very much into such as

Working to Save a Country Size portion of the Planet for the Members of my DAO = Decentralized Automatous Organization ( Membership is willing to Join in on Weekly Meeting as were building a damn country you wanna just get together at Christmas and hope Santa brings it to us lol ( come on we have not been that damn good at all ) this is going to to take actual work and money ( ours ) don't wanna do it I will take the gun away from your head that you actually thought was there but it was only an illusion and yes it will take money serious money

Saving some section of the real planet with The Group Above once again a DAO

Working on my homeless issue as I want to attempt an $ 100,000 experiment working with the Homeless and The People of the Street to get them owing actual PROPERTY on the BLOCKCHAIN ( Doable ) want a 10 year deal paid by the three levels of Government

Installing water taps and bottle fillers in my city downtown core so that the Homeless are never to far away from water ( there is already a proto type off the bridge on 81st heading North ) that I was turned on to by the Fire Fighters at Station # 5 on one of my daily visits ( yah I stop bye daily at a firehall, just as I did pretty much as a kid until my life and world got murdered by a Priest at My Church ( da damn Catholics destroyed my family totally as the Town of St Albert was Owned by The Church ( if only in spirit ) it was owned

Anyways my BEST GREATEST GIFT EVER is that MY Little Sister is going to allow me a second chance after 23 years and a lot of work on my part and I mean a lot as the shit I have changed since 1999 is almost mind fucking me when I see the list

And i am so very happy today as now the two of three houses I want in my area as this is where I want to the group home for the young Edmontonian's that have sorta lost their way and I have seen a lot of work on some of them and this is another MILLION DOLLARS sorry people but when you work to REHAB A HUMAN IT IS COSTLY and takes time, patients and kindness as you all have shown me in the last few years and I am sorry for just NOT UNDERSTANDING KINDNESS AT ALL AS I HAVE NEVER HAD MUCH

This GIFT from my SISTER is going to take massive processing time as were talking about HUMAN PROGRAMMING AND RELATIONSHIP CREATION AND DEVOLOPEMENT AND WITH ME WERE STARTING AS IF I AM A DAMN

CHILD AS THIS LOSS OF KINDNESS IN MY LIFE LEFT DECADES AGO WHEN DAD PASSED I WOULD SAY WAS THE TIME FRAME WHEN IT BEGAN 1975 ( 47 YEARS AGO ) WHICH WOULD LEAVE MY GROWING AND UNDERSTANDING RELATIONSHIPS AND EVERYTHING ELSE TO DO WITH PEOPLE AT AROUND 14 YEARS AGO

AND I NEED PEOPLE TO WATCH OVER ME AS I GET SCREWED OFTEN STILL AS I AM AS i SAID STILL AT TIMES MENTALLY AT AROUND 14 AND THE PRETTY GIRLS ARE OLDER THAN THAT AND CAN DESTROY ME VERY QUICKLY AND EASILY

STILL A OT OF LADIES AND GIRLS REALLY SEEM TO CARE AND I CARE ABOUT ALLL OF THEM TO AS THIS IS THE WAY OF GOD AND HIS SON JESUS CHRIST ( my personal savior ) who was tested so fucken much over this last year and attempting to figure out how and why the rape occurred --- I made my way back somewhat still a long way to go as with God it is always a growing towards goal that one has to expect

And for this project i need all of you as the way you need me ( this is where my damn mind gets messed up totally as no one has ever needed me ) really and it is weird as I designed my life as God is my BOSS and Jesus Supervises the work as he is always in my head

Do you want to hear some funny shit? Ok I know you do...... I was let go by my Nurse ( now the use just nurses to decide on treatment of the Mentally Ill after the screwed me over for 40 years ( yup 40 years of the wrong treatment , medications etc. ) and you wanna know what that amount of length of time of medicine can do to a mind and likely the meat of the brain as the brain has trillions of cells and when you begging using a brain / mind as a dumping group for high grade drugs the brain actually changes shape but the cool part is that it would seem that just one maybe a bit more of

Self-Directed Psychiatry ( S.D.P. ) you can change the brain back to its original state and then deal with what began the mental state in the first place

and since my latest diagnoses was / is PTSD the truth it seems is that I rewired my own brain through a process known as

Neuroplasticity by utilizing various skills and tools of mental science and brain rebuilding technology and the strange part is that I did this alone with PRAYER and GOD and my books as knowledge in this area seems to be of paramount importance

What if I have invented some bulllshit mental science that with a little bit of training and studying like your life depends upon it ( because it actually does ) this is your life and we end up placing dependency on our care givers and they are one going to fuck you up if they know that they can make a few extra $1000 on a surgery or any process and then you become a toy, pet, rat

So my life loses its " therapist " yah really a NURSE not a Trauma Therapist AT ALL as these are way to different sciences even the NURSE who on the 28th dismissed himself from my world

The next day I was blessed and I mean BLESSED with an opportunity of my LITTLE SISTER ALLOWING ME A CHANCE in her family ( what a fucken great trade ) a NURSE that we were only bullshitting pretty much for a FAMILY a Sister and Three Nieces Damn great trade

Thank YOU GOD - JESUS CHRIST - AND ALL THE ANGELS WHO HAVE BEEN PLANNING MY COMEBACK FOR A VERY LONG TIME AS THEY HAVE BEEN WATCHING ME AND IT HAS BEEN A FUCKEN WOILD RIDE SINCE MY GOOD FRIEND STAARTED MY LEARNING ADVENTURE IN DYNAMIC REALITY = SK

GOD I AM SO VERY VERY BLESSED

I CAN'T EVEN BELEIVE THIS STUFF AS I WORKED SO LONG AND I JUST ENDED UP WORKING AND THE DREAM WAS ALWAYS IJN THE BACK SIDE OF MY MIND / BRAIN FROM 1999 AND IT MANIFESTED ITSELF BUT IT TOOK A WHILE LONGER THEN AGAIN THE BEST SHIT ALWAYS TAKES THE LONGEST

I also freed myself up from the endless loop pshycatrist loop on JUNE 20, 2022 when my Dominatrix Psycatrist was 12 minutes late again ( a long COVID plan that she created for herself as she gets to bill for the full session without doing the full session and I had called her out on this bullshit manipulation of MY TIME many times before as it was totally disrescetpful of my TIME and TIME IS AS I LEARNED OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS IS MY MOST VALUABLE THING I OWN (GET TO HAVE, USE ) BUT WHEN I WASTE IT OR ALLLOW OTHER PEOPLE TO WASTE IT I CAN NEVER EVER GET IT BACK AND THAT MEANS THAT I AM TOTALLY FREE FROM THE MENTAL HEALTH INDUSTRY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 39 YEARS

IT HAS BEEN 40 WONDERFUL DAYS SINCE I FIRED DR A PATEL FOR NOT RESPECTING

MY TIME THE LAST SESSION SHE WAS 12 MINUTES LATE FROM A 30 MINUTE SESSION ONCE EVER 5 -6 WEEKS --- IT WAS NOT RIGHTAS i WAS A BILLIMNG ITEM NOT A CLIENT SHE CARED ABOUT AND SHE TO EXPERIMEMNTED ON ME ALONG WITH THE REST OF THE DOCTORS WHO APPEARED FOR BIT PIECES OR LONG ROLLS IN MY LIFE AND WORLD -- IT IS OVER AS I UNDERSTAND THE MEDICINE AS WELL AS A PHARMA TECH & MENTAL PATIENT UNIT MERGED AND RUNNING THE cps in my back brain some how --- damn it i did learn something

WOW FREEDOM IS WONDERFUL WE DID IT GOD, JESUS AND ALL MY ANGELS ALL AROUND ME

Damn I am so fucken blessed as I am like back from the DEAD ( ALMOST LIKE ANOTHER GUY I STUDIED ) A LOT

THANK YOU ALL

Lucien Jean Edgar Faciote II

Lucien The Light II

July 29, 2022