Sept 9~ Today IAM Finally About To Attempt To Write About The PAIN I Was Made TO ENDURE BY SOCIETY

And THIS MEANS THE PEOPLE as you see this PAIN has BEEN REAL for me VERY VERY REAL

We will Begin With My Uncle Oscar ( and his Clan ) guess what the WEEDS were always going to KILL ME --- The thing is I asked him one December day to drive me to a FUNERAL HOME way the Fu*K on the SOUTHSIDE and with no CAR I would have been unable to attend the Funeral ( ceremony ) of The Passing Of My MOM --so driving and I have a Sony Cd Player at my feet in the Front Of His Car and we arrive and I grab the CD PLAYER as I wanted to play a song for my mom -- and he said " If You Bring The Music Player In You Have To Walk Home " ( now I have no damn clue where I be ) Mom was not going to have a tune that had great significance for me and likely a few others that were allowed to attend my mom and dads home ( the Family of Oscar they never were not at all, as my dad did NOT want to feed his My Uncles RABBITS ) as they had like 20 kids / to babies cramped into a home smaller than DADS Garage


Can YOU guess what the song was as whenever I hear it now I get sad very sad very very sad --- my mom was gone and I was out in a damn parking lot worried about walking home ( from God knows where ) BASTARD BULLY


The Song Was -- Mr. Tom Petty -- Wildflowers


THIS IS A CHILD FROM ST ALBERT ALBERTA CANADA THAT HAD 52 YEARS OF HIS LIFE DESTROYED BY THE CHURCH & GOVERNMENTS - AND I NOW ONLY WISH TO WALK -- AND HAVE PUDDING --AS I CAN'T HAVE MEAT ( PATTIES ALONE YA I CAN DO THIS ) STEAK OR EVEN CHICKEN

NO APPLES -- YOU PRETTY MUCH AS A SOCIETY TO WHICH I AM STILL SO VERY BLESSED TO BE IN -- YOU ALL TOOK SO DAMN MUCH --AND NO I BREAK DOWN AND CRY ALL FOR WHAT I GAVE UP TO FUCKEN SAVE YOUR


DAMN PLANET AS FUCK YOU ALL DO NOT EVEN CARE ABOUT IT YOURSELF

IT IS SO FUCKEN SAD AS YOU BRED HAVE A KID OR SO -- AND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT SAVING THE DAMN PLANET -- AND YOUR CHILDREN WILL DIE --- BUT YOU ARE GREAT PARENTS -- AND YOU KILL THE KIDS AND THE KIDS OF ALL YOUR NEIGHBORS -- NOT YOUR JOB --- IT ALL OF OUR JOBS --

This was the BOY THAT WAS RAPED by A CATHOLIC PRIEST who I have forgiven along with the CHURCH as the whole thing is screwed up It KILLED my DADDY at 45 years old and fucked destroyed everything in my life and world BUT I had to do a Massive Reframe and think about what Jesus Christ would do -- and he forgave even the men that hung him on the CROSS and I then knew i had to figure out HOW he was able to to this and it was again he REFRAMED the pain and the reality of everything around him ( and I am into this technology known as NLP = Nero Linguistic Programming ) and this it a tough thing I am studying WEB3 along with CODING this stuff all costs money and I live below the poverty line but learning is REQUIRED IN EDGAR FACIOTE WORLD he instated I LEARN SOMETHING EVER DAY AND WHEN THE FAMILY WAS ONE HE WOULD ENTER THE ROOM WE WOULD DO THE PRAYER -- AND THEN I WAS ASKED WHAT I LEARNED THAT DAY

I ACTUALY DIED THE DAY HE MOVED OUT as HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND EVER and he was unstoppable then he stopped


And I wish there were pictures but there is NONE -- my dear MOM planted Flowers fucken everywhere at 44 Gresham Blvd even in Places Where No One Saw -- I asked her one day why she had a whole area next to out HOME with a Stair Concept Going that My Mom and My Dad built so she could plant the whole area with


Bleeding Hearts ---- thousands of -- one day when I was chopping the insane job that My Dad would Give My 3-4 X a Year -- he would equip me with a PAIR of scissors the fence had like a board and then a Section pushed back -- I am a KID and he is teaching me the LESSON


DO NOT QUIT


This job went all around the bloody house from the from all away wrapping around the whole house -- and every 10 inches there was yet another section pushed back I was on my knees every board my dad was a demon with me as that damn fence was my enemy every summer and he would never let me off ever


And some days he would even allow me to hang out with him on the job site of Edgar Faciote Plastering Supplies LTD and the math and Physics Lessons of him throwing stones at Garage Walls ( stucco ) his was a maniac ( and it was a wild time for me ) the throw was beautiful ever time,,


Well one day on September 4, 2013 I was sent on a mission to see, feel and think about how people on the very, very bottom of The Socioeconomic Scale Lived I was sent on this Mission that would last 37 months --- and it would be brutal at times


I one time cut the shit out of my skull when I was attacked in AHE by a person / or thing they never caught and from what I was told it was RED ( my BLOOD ) as it went everywhere


So I was taken to the University Hospital and planted in a waiting area with 2 great ambulance attendance / Paramedics and we have to wait for Chantel ( another one of my Favorite Nurse as I had to be supervisor ) so she arrives and I am wheeled into a sewing room, and she was allowed ( if I agreed and I did as I trusted her ) to do a stich or two in the top of my skull and she is and was cool about it and then she jumped a cab and I was back in a ambulance to AHE ...They took great care of me at AHE -- Thank YOU Chantel and Team that night -- and they washed and folded my TEE SHIRT -- THE SEEMED TO CARE no one ever cared about me and I was really unsure how to cope with this NEW FEELING / Emotion .. and now with PTSD it is even harder -- slowly and the people in my New Groups / Families are really trying to teach a cranky old man how to


JUST BEHAVE -- As I do NOT GET a lot of the RULES -- and this because so MANY of MANKINDS Rules favor the Rich & The Elite and the Middle Class is getting wiped out right now

I am going to a spell thing and then post this I after my daddy past had a lot the books are important as my DADDY was a fanatic with my / and his reading


` I remember a few times at the Job Site the people whose garage we were doing had boxes of books in their Garages and DADDY would tell me to ask if I could have a few and some times I was allowed all of -- and this was like yet another CHRISTMAS and in my Place now I have 1.600 plus paper books ( they take up the house the whole thing ) I are 860 on kindle plus 400 plus audible and I love books and the music I am allowed to listen to I wish I still had the B&O Stereo with The KEF 102's --this thing BATTLE to SAVE ALBERTA workers from the WCB Torture Facility Cost me everything


Including 40 years of my life and then there was a 12 year add on after I was FUCKEN RAPED BY A DAMN PRIEST


I am going for a walk of something

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