The NightMare Begins Well I Am No Longer Tracking It All The Way To The Point AS A Child I Was Hurt
No more as I have forgiven the players that came into my world and life as a very young boy and basically caused the End of The Family, I Had for a Few Years but YOU ARE going to be amazed what happened as my Dad moved out and that passed away a few years later that night of February 19, 1975 was my kid sisters' birthday and the night my dad passed away
FUCK as I was angry, confused, lost and I didn't want to be there anymore as I pretty much directed to pick out the burial suit of clothes and my Dads Casket and I saw the High Pressure and Weird Pain Sales process (it at 14 years old was a fucken horrible experience) as they convince you that "your loved would love this model, and well this model was going to buried in the Ground and I was into the Oak, With Trim at about $8,000
When we got from CASKET SHOPPING the phone rang and the Casket, I thought I bought was not in our insurance monies range as it seemed my Dad cancelled the policy and flew around the world a few times as the last flight of my Dad
I am let buying the cheapest BLUE BOX that they had and now I was in trouble as Dad always and so did we all had the best -- and the BLUE BOX was not it
After the Burial the humans came to the house, and I have very limited memory of this besides having Humans give me a hard time over the suit and the Casket
I was just 14 years old that month fuck and the next day would be around the beginning of drinking problem that lasted until two City of Edmonton Police Officers showed up at the place in the tower and I was kinda fucked up as it was not only 930am but I had polished two 2 liter bottles of the cheapest wino wine they had and popping pills for the mental illness I was told I had to take ( over and over again and again forever and every timeI would someone of talk to someone it would come up in the rarly moments of the ta;k " have you taken your medicines "
The pills were okay as doctors prescribed then so it was OKAY to take as after all didn't you see that clean white coat they wore -- or whatever I was tricked to TRUST THE DOCTOR at a very early age as my doctor lived a few houses down, and another doctor was across the street from him
I started off my new life in this new massive world and I knew no one hardly but people I partied with and these people are not always the best role models
These are your cages now as I am no longer going to BE SOCIETIES PET PUPPY the one that YOUR SOCIETY HAS BEEN EXPERIMENTING ON SINCE 1975 AS IT BEGAN AT THE PASSING OF MY SUPER HERO = MY DAD AND YOUR GOVERNMENT STEPPED INTO MY FAMILIES LIFE AND WORLDS AND YOU STILL HAVE YET TO JUST LET ME GO TO ENJOY THE LAST FEW FUCKED UP YEARS WE AS A SPEICES MAY HAVE AS THE RICH, POWEERFUL ELITES THE RULERS STILL HAVE HUMANITY AS THERE PETS THAT IS YOU AND YOUR KIDS -- SORRY THIS IS NOT JUST MADE UP, I WISH
READ = " DISPOSABLE PEOPLE": By Kevin Bales -- New Slavery in The Global Economy
I started this LEGAL STUFF in about 1983 when I destroyed my left wrist working at Horne & Pitfield Foods and I was given a Electric Pallet Jack with NO BRAKES None and on the first AISLE I turned in the Power Jack well it followed me as I attempted to stop this and I was not able -- under the racking the holds the food, into a empty slot on the ground / floor level and this was the next beginning of the END
And I was going to be sentenced a while later to a shrink at the WCB Rehab for smacking my little sister 2x for some stupid shit he saw me for maybe 5-10 minutes and sent me to the EVENING HOSPITAL PROGRAM that was 4 Months Long and I had to go and I also had to return to work even though he was not a bone expert or had he even asked about the wrist which I was at this stage eating percecet (OPIATES) like they were candy fuck and then I was told they had light work in the repack area oh shit now I have to go 5 days a week for 4 hours a day / night in the Old Aberhart Hospital in Edmonton to deep into the Westend of the City for a 8 hour shift (and I was without a car, and I have never driven and i feel that I still made a few great choices seeing what humanity has done to the climate with all the shit we pump into the very air we have to breathe in and I was a DRUNK from all the PAIN I WAS ATTEMPTING TO DEAL WITH ON MY OWN WITH BEER / WINE (Never Hard Stuff) but I would make up for it, I was also smoking weed and hashish (those were the days) Lebanese Black Hash was brilliant we had some very awesome stuff -- and I never used hard drugs again (Okay I did I did Shroms 2x LSD x 2 and cocaine x 1) and currently I actually don't give a shit anymore what anyone actually thinks about me as the SOCIETY of Alberta / Edmonton screwed up my Brain as 27 year of OPIATES daily from the doctors and I had to fight so hard for the
FREEDOM ------ FROM OPAITES -- AND BACK PAIN
THE FIRST REFERRAL I WAS ALLOWED AFTER 6 MONTHS OF JUST FIGHTING MY DOCTOR JOHNHENDERSON GUY HE SENT ME TO THE UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL AND I WAS TOLD TO TAKE OFF MY SHIRT AND LAY ON THE THING THAT IS FOR LAYING DOWN IN THE OFFICE
SO THIS DOCTOR MAYBE ARRIVES SOME TIME LATER AND SAYS RELAX AND PUSHES INTO THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY TUMMY AND SAYS " THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO " HE DID NOT DO SHIT -- WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL AFTER THIS I WAS IN A SELF INDUCED HIGH STATE AND I WAS JUST NOT WANTING TO BE ANY WHERE
IT TOOK ME A WHOLE YEAR THE NEXT TIME TO GET IN TO A PAIN CLINIC AND EVERY SESSION, I WOULD BOTHER HIM I WOULD CALL HIM AT HOME I WANTED TO GET WELL
the SYSTEM feels I am too old and want me to go away -- Mental Illness is a LIFE SENTENCE as they treat they cannot fix / heal / alter the mass that is your brain as we still are working on the damn thing as you know the shit that our human mind does even without the human being aware
I am an old man finally and the SYSTEM HAS FINALLY PUSHED ME WAY TO HARD AS I HAVE NOT HURT ANYONE IN THE LAST FEW YEARS, I KNOW THIS AS I HAVE BEEN A ASSET TO MY COMMUNITY AND I HOPE A BIGGER RANGE THAN MY TOWN AS THIS BLOG REACHES NOW
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