This Is Tough, Really Tough ---- BUTT

Who knew that coming off of Buprenorphine / Naloxone (Suboxone) could be a rough as hell ride as its been as it has now been 12 days since I started the withdrawal from it and I am down 40% from 20mg to 12mg

Tonight however the pain level from the actual reason I was / am on it has flared (the coccyx [tail bone] wound) that was last measured at 1cm x 1.5cm a few months ago

And here is the BUTT as this has to change as I might hurt BUTT as soon as the word gets spoken when I am asked "what are you on?" and I say the S word "SUBOXONE" the mind of the questioner and that is JUNKIE and it is sad as I fought so long and so hard to get and stay clean and to have me and what I am being equated to a person that fights as hard as I guess I have to stay clean

All I want is to walk again and dealing with Schizoaffective Disorder and trying to do my best is hard and what is the purpose

Remember "Pre-COVID 19" when I was always on the streets of "my town" as a fixture, and then the drugs (Subixone) took over and pretty much took my life away from me -- i went from and it was recorded 9-10km a day to this week on average 0.46km this is BS as I ''want my life back"

And now i am in The Fight of My Life for the Ultimate Prize = My Life

And failure is NOT an Option

See You on The Streets TODAY

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