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TODAY I SHOWED UP HERE

AS DID YOU


AND HERE WE ALL ARE IN THE ERA OF EXTINCTION ---WE SCREWED A PLANET UP OVER WHAT?


IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS DAY AND I AM GOING TO


WHAT THE HELL WAS I SUPPOSED TO AGAIN, OH I FORGOT THE MAC AND CHEESE AGAIN


THE SYSTEM STUFFED ME FULL OF PHARMACUTICALS THAT THE SYSTEM ALLOWED TO OCCUR FOR 40 YEARS AND FUCK I LIVED


25 YEARS OF OPIATES ALONE AND THEY MIXED THEM WITH MENTAL MEDS AND THEY ALL KNEW THAT MIXING EM' WOULD BRING ON SUICIDE IDIATIONS AND IT DID SO THEY JUST CONTINUED AND THEN I BUSTED MY ASS FOR 207 DAYS TO GET CLEAN AND THEN THEY HOOKED ME UP AGAIN EVEN WHEN I BEGGED THEM NOT TO


YOUR SOCIETY DESIGNED & CREATED ME BIO-CHEMICALLY, AND NERO-CHEMICALLY AND EVERYONE WAS HAPPY IN THE LITTLE CIRCLE AROUND ME UNTIL SOMEHOW A



BIG GREEN HAT


SHOWED UP AND THEN THEY WERE HAPPIER AS YOU WERE BEFORE I WAS AND SO THE


BIG GREEN HAT







STAYED AND YOU LIKED ME AND FORGOT ME -- AND I WAS ALMOST READY TO DIE FOR A WHILE AS THIS WORLD WAS GETTING WEIRDER AND WEIRDER AND YOU KNOW IT SCREWED MY HEAD UP AS I KEPT READING AND LEARNING AND GROWING AND WONDERING WHAT THE HELL WAS HAPPENING OUTSIDE MY MIND AS PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE FOR WHAT?


AND THEN I WAS MADE SCARED AS I WAS HERE FOR --- CHERNOBYL IN APRIL 1986 WHICH WAS A YEAR AFTER THE INJURY THAT DESTROYED MY LOW BACK, AND CAUSED ALL SORTS OF PAIN THAT NO ONE THOUGHT WAS EVER GONNA END AND I WAS TAKEN TO CHURCH A LOT AND I MEAN A LOT A CHURCHS OF THE CATHOLIC FAITH AND I BEGAN READING AND STUDYING AND PRAYING (YAH EVEN WAY BACK THEN AS I ALSO STARTED WRITING AS I HAD MY FIRST COMPUTER IN 1988 A CERTIFIED DATA / IMB 8088 AND I THE OLD HEAVY METAL TYPEWRITTER WENT AWAY AND YOU KNOW THEN PEOPLE BEGAN ASKING ME TO WRITE THE STORY OF MY LIFE AS IT WAS WEIRD AND I SURVIVED AND I STILL DO NOT KNOW NOR UNDERSTAND AS TO THE HOW AS I WAS IN A HOSPITAL A CATHOLIC HOSPITAL FOR A REALLY LONG PERIOD AFTER A SELF INDUCED COMA TO ESCAPE A HELLISH UNIT IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL WHICH WAS MY FIRST TRIP INTO A MENTAL UNIT AS I WAS NEVER FEAKED OUT LIKE THAT BEFORE AND THEY TOOK AWAY MY POWER TO HANDLE MY OWN MONEY (PUBLIC TRUSTEE MR LES HILL) AND THEN ONE WEEKEND THEY ALLOWED ME A PASS AND GAVE ME BUT A SINGLE PILL A BIG WHITE PILL AND I WAS AT MY HOME THIS WAS AFTER BEING HOME FOR A VERY VERY SHORT PERIOD I STARTED TO HALLUCINATE AFTER THIS DAMN WHITE CAPSULE PILL AND I THOUGHT IN MY ALREADY FUCKED UP MIND / BRAIN OK YOU WANNA SEE ME DIE I WAS OVER LOOKING 159ST OF STONY PLAIN ROAD #23 AND I SAID OKAY FUUUCK THIS AND I THOUGHT / SAID IN MY LITTLE STONED MIND AS I HAD DOWN LSD 2X MUSHROOMS 1X COKE 1X AND A LOT OF WEED/HASH/OIL (FUCK I REMEMBER THE BLACK HASH AND THE HONEY OIL WE COULD GET BACK THEN THIS WAS A MASSIVE HALLUCINATION AND I SHOULD HAVE FUCKEN ENJOYED THE TRIP AS IT MIGHT HAVE OPENED THE DOORS OF PERCEPTION SORRY HUXLEY BUT I WAS TRIPPING OUT AS I HAD NO PHONE (YAH I AM LOSING MY FUCKEN MIND AND THE PHONE IS DEAD ) AS GUESS WHY THE PUBLIC TRUSTEE WANTED TO SAVE SOMETHING LIKE $ 25 /MO AND HE GOT THE



POWER TO RUN MY LIFE


WHEN I WAS LOCKED IN A PLACE CALLED



9 B SOUTH --- NINE B SOUTH


AND REMMEBER A BUDDY MR BILL WILLIAMS AS WOULD SHOW UP DAILY DURING THE WEEK AND BRING A BURGER (BIG MAC) AND A PACK OF SMOKES AND WE WOULD SIT IN A TINY ROOM AND TALK ( MR BILL WILLIAMS ) WILL ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART AND MY SOUL LIKE MY MOM AND DAD AS HE WAS KIND TO ME EVEN WHEN YOUR SOCIETY (AND FAMILY / RELATIVES) TOSSED ME AWAY FOR HAVING A MENTAL ILLNESS FROM --- CHECK THIS OUT



DRINKING A BEER OR SIX A DAY AND -- THIS IS THE KICKER ( COMIN FROM A DADS SISTERS FAMILY DOWN THE STREETS)



IT WAS THE NASTY WEEDS AND HASH AND HONEY OILS AS IT WAS GOING TO KILL ME AS IT WOULD CAUSE ME TO KILL MYSELF ALSO THE FAMILY THAT TOOK ME INTO A TENT TRAILER WHEN THE FAMILY HOME WAS SOLD ON SEPTEMBER 26, 1978 AND I WOULD LAST A FEW WEEKS AS I WAS SMOKING WEEDS TO NUMB THE PAIN FROM ALL THE DAMN SHIT I WAS EXPERIENCING THE LOSS OF MY DAD, HOME, SISTER, MOM AND I WAS SLEEPING IN A TENT TRAILER OVER LOOKING MY HOME AND THINKING THAT ALL THE DREAMS THAT MOM AND DAD AND ME HAD FOR ME WERE NOW GONE AND I WAS IN A DAMN TENT TRAILER OVER LOOKING THE HOME MY DAD BUILT FOR HIS FAMILY



WELL THEY SENT ME ON THAT 37 MONTH TRIP TO LEARN SHIT LIKE KINDNESS, COMPASSION, UNDERSTANDING OF OTHERS., GENEROUSITY


AND TWO KIDS (THE YOUNGEST FUCKEN KILLED THEMSELVES AS THEY WERE ABUSED ) AND IT DID NOT HIT ME WHEN I WAS TOLD OF THIS IN 2016 HOWEVER THE BIGGER BROTHER HAD HIS PHONE CHANGED LIKE I WAS A DEVIL OR SOME SHIT AND THAT OCCURED IN A FEW DAYS --- NOT KIDDEN



AND THE RELATIVES THE ONE THAT GROUND IT IN THAT I WAS GOING TO KILL MYSELF ALONG WITH HIS DAD WHOM DENIED ME TO PLAY A SIMPLE TOM PETTY SONG WILDFLOWERS AT MY DEAR MOMS FUNERAL



BANG THEY WERE DONE TOO AND THIS SHIT IS NEW FOR ME AS THE THING IS NOW I AM ABOUT TO CHANGE DAMN



EVERYTHING AND I MEAN EVERYTHING ABOUT ME -- BESIDES THE


BIG GREEN HAT


AS THAT BRINGS YOU JOY IN MY WORLD THAT I HAVE HAD TO CONSTRUCT WHEN I WAS ALLOWED TO RETURN TO THE REAL WORLD AFTER THE 37 MONTHS AND THE HORRIBLE / TORTURE WITH THE YANKING OF EVERY TOOTH IN MY MOUTH WITH


ZERO FREEZING


STILL CAN'T FIND ANYONE THAT WANTS TO ATTEMPT IT AS I LIVED THINK YOU WOULD ? KIDDING AS THAT WAS THE WORST PAIN I HAVE STILL HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED AS IMAGINE HAVING 22-23 TEETH YANKED WITH ZERO FREEZING AND


TONIGHT ON JESUS CHRIST MY PERSONAL SAVIOR BIRTHDAY I AM ABOUT RIGHT NOW GOING TO ALLOW FORGIVNESS TO THE PEOPLE THAT TOOK A PART IN THAT HORROR / TORTURE SHOW GO AS THEY HAD NO IDEA AS TO THE LONG TERM EFFECTS THAT THEY WERE TRIGGERING WITH THAT SIMPPLE (SIMPLE) RIGHT ACTION THAT WAS DONE UNTO ME



WHY



I WENT INTO MY CAFE / STORE A FEW DAYS BEFORE TODAY (CHRISTMAS) AND ASKED A FEW PEOPLE IF THEY KNEW MY NAME AND NO ONE DID BUT TWO PEOPLE AND IT TRIPPED ME AS I HAS BEEN HERE FOR 6-7 YEARS NOW AND I WAS HURT


IT IS OKAY AS I HAD HARDLY ANY IDEA AS TO WHO THE HELL I WAS EITHER --- THINK WHAT I HAS HAD TO GO THROUGH TO GET HERE --



THE CHEMIST -- THERE IS A GOOD FRIEND, AND HE HAS LIKELY SAVED MY WORTHY / UNWORTHY LIFE AS


THE MAD HATTER EXPERIENCE



WHAT DO YOU THINK ?


AS I GOT CANDY FOR LATER TODAY


and now i am gonna go and see what i can do in my PENTHOUSE (GIRLS I NEEDS HELP IN ORGANIZING AND TIDYING AS SHIT I AM DISABLED A WEE BIT AS SOMETIMES WHEN I BENZ OVER TO PICK UP THINGS I FALLZ OVER AND CAN'T PICK ME UP WEIRD HUH BUT I CAN WALK WHAT FOREVER)


BUT I AM ABOUT TO PUSH ME TO DO IT AS THIS IS MY FAMILY HOME NOW AND I MUST MAKE MY MOM & DAD & EVEN MY LITTLE SISTER WHO DON'T LIKE ME MUCH AS I AM


THE MENTAL PATIENT



AND WE ALL REMEMBER MY MENTAL PATIENT STORIES FROM ME FAMILY AND FRIENDS



HEY HEY HANG ON HERE NOW



THE APP SAYS YUP IT DOES


IN JUST 10 HOURS 10 LOUSY HOURS I WILL HAVE



3,600 DAYS OF SOBRIETY FROM ALCOHOL


AND I KNOW MY MOM & DAD AND EVEN ME ARE KINDA PROUD OF THIS SHIT AS 3,600


AND I DID 59 DAYS AT CHRISTMAS 2013 INCLUDING THE EVENING AND DAY IN THE HERB JAMISON MENS HOUSLESS SHELTER WHOM WITHOUT THE GUYS ON DORM O AROUND WHERE I WAS LAYING AND YACKING AND YELLIN AT GOD, JESUS AS TO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ME AND MY BRAIN WAS IN AND OUT OF 44 GRESHAM BLVD


WHAT THE FUCK ELON I JUST NOTICED THIS SHIT YOU PAID 44 BILLION FOR TWITTER AND THEY PAID AROUND $86K FOR MY FAMILY HOME AND I NEVER GOT UP TILL NOW I NEVER SAW THE NUMBER TILL NOW



THANK YOU WORLD AND JESUS CHRIST AND GOD AS I NEEDED ALL THIS SHIT TO HAPPEN TO ME TO BRING ME TO THIS POINT TODAY ON CHRISTMAS DAY 3,600 DAYS OF SOBRIETY (I DID THIS) WOOH!!!! I DAMN WELL PULLED IT OFF ON JESUS CHRISTS BIRTHDAY ON TOP OF THAT HAHA



WOW I FEEL KINDA DECENT NOW EXCEPT FOR ALL THE PAIN I GETS AT TIME S



TODAY ALL DAY MEDS = 5 SUBOXENE (THAT IS IT)



THANK YOU ALL



BUT WHY THE TEETH?? lol




HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER



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