You Have Been Through So Much = You Are A Good Sufferer So Suffer Some More

this one has me people, a kidney/bladder infection and I no longer wish to play anymore and NOW we have entered a new place (both) mentally and physically

I am at the "end days"

I don't understand anything anymore,

Nothing makes sense, and all I am doing is staying alive for the next pain medication cycle.

Just stop "hurting me", please

I am losing my mind now

I can't use a "state change" product (alcohol, weed, etc.)

my legs hurt, my kidney area hurts, back hurts

Just stop-- Please

I am very tired of suffering as this whole last year has been -more and more

PLEASE