YOU WIN -- HOWEVER -- YOU DID YOURSELFS IN AT THE SAME TIME GO FIGURE,

You began the trauma in me, and my family and you well pretty much medicated the shit out of a human ( me ) that actually trusted you and your systems of BIG PHARMA, Governments, Doctors, etc


The TRUTH is that you began to hack my body apart in / and around March 28, 2012 to April 3, 2012 and then you treated me nice right SAM

What did we / you need the half of my right LUNG form and why was I given all that I was as then you all went insane to kill me as many times and as many ways that you could


Today is my last day of SOBRIETY as I intend to have some nice white wine and study more of how Corrupt this ENTIRE WORLD IS


Well, it seemed like something was a miss


And Near the Endgames Humanity would / will TOTALLY DESTROY itself for FIAT / PAPER with DEAD NOTABLES on them --- so you get 80 years and 40 or more will be working for the FIAT -- I guess never works this way like I am very certain that all the BABY BOOMERS planned on working after retirement (what is wrong with that phrase?) Of Course, they did not just look at my Family Dad passed at 45 years kids (me = 14 years old) (sister 12 years old) this was 1975 (when music was music and I was not ALLOWED to listen I wasn't really, nope playing the accordion till parents happy (seemed like it) still got to read before bed and they were fantastic for allowing me this as BOOKS BECAME MY FRIENDS,


This has been a horrific year for many, many people --




But how many of your kids (and this was a big fucken deal I think I am attempting to unrememeber everything from my tiny time (FUCK) I had the odd beer at the Race Track at Westwind Oval this was where Dad's first Heart Attack was and a few days i saw him in the Hospital and my Hero my Dad my Best Friend Looked Scared when I looked and he looked at me, I give up right now --we need to go a year n' half and boyfriend as mom gets lonely to and she and dad went out weekends, I see it now--F'n boyfriend --we both got hit the truth is he had a time when I was not there or some shit i came home from a 8 hour shift at Pro Western Plastics and then a basically ordinary dad at school and I was not the best student anymore as I was until Grade 4 ish when my buddy at school (cross from my desk) passed away and I remember going to the Church and his body was by the front lobby area of it and this was odd, as it looked like his face has glass in it --and again more visions and memeories DAMN Mind his name was Dale Weisberger


When did I crash the minibike? (Dad was at home still) he was at the end of the driveway, and I have a thought of $500 being passed) Where was my passenger (who?) where has my mind gone -- nowhere as I was fed dangerous drugs for a very long time, and you can't even buy a bunch of them that 1983 was a weird place to be LABELED AS MENTALLY ILLNESS

DID I SMASH MY HEAD ON THE ROAD? ON GRESHAM BLVD. DID I GET UP EVEN DID ANYONE, WTF

HELL IT IS STILL DAMN HARD

DID I DIE AND THEN GRAB THE BIKE (WHERE WAS MY PASSENGER, WAS IT JERRY, OR DALE?)

WHAT IS GOING ON


WHAT THE HELL OCCURED IN ST ALBERT ALBERTA and The Motel (How did Carol find me in both places)


Is there a reason all this stuff occurred between my 13 - 14-year-old birthday 15days-- I failed everybody really fast -- drinking (mental pail, that is like this shit now as I don't understand much of anything no more)


OKAY I get back from the 37 months and dead are that i find out


1) Uncle Oscar (Heart)

2) Alaine Labrie ( youngest son Aunt Liesesaane and Oscar )


From Bernard Labrie (when I was still in Satellite House before I was to be trapped in a Group Home System, and he was going to be in my head over the next few years,)


I lost Three Members of The Bruha Family (back from St Alberta in fact 2 houses over Glenn was upset and changed his number)

1) Mr Rudy

2) Barry

3) Blain

I am sad over the boys they were young, and Glenn was pissed with me when I came back to town





The FACT is that I finally have been pushed way, way to fucken hard and far, so the last card in my hand is the last one of mine as no more I cannot deal with this intense pain anymore and I will just say I tried and lost ( but you also lost ) and your loss will be bigger than the heart that you damn well destroyed in my body as I said that no more ever again as i can no longer deal with everyones cheating to get ahead of everyone else


I can no longer TAKE PART IN THIS WORLD


But I recently have been somewhat ok and last week I went 5 days or 6 it was only weeknds that were harder?


WHY?


No one to talk to WHY?

My generation uses the phones less

And I am SOBER now for


9 years 9 months and 6 days


and what do you all do when you and the tribe come over yup Drink? Smoke? TV? (and I no longer do these things


So I should be punished and as I tried to talk to The Addiction Lines that this ALBERTA GOVERNMENT RUNS


I get told I don't have an addiction ( fuck they have never attempted to see / hear my story as I maybe clean and sober but the loss of all friends was horrific as the AA Book don't say this as you think that the two City of Edmonton Police Service that got me started on the SOBRIETY Program would of said and oh BTW -- all your friends will run away as fast as you can toss them


and all of them did


Go Figure


It is fucken horrible thinking about a new life event changing the VICE that one has had since MY DAD PASSED AWAY in 1975 and add the weeds as I just was not experiencing a good time with the LOSS OF MY DAD that Birthday Night of My Sister --It Crushed me totally


everyone is still making massive bank off keeping me SICK


I WANT MY LIFE AND WORLD BACK PLEASE I WILL BEHAVE I PROMISE THE MISTRESS OF THE MAD HATTER EXPERIENCE


LOOKING FOR MY DOMINANT MISTRESS TO HAVE FUN IN THE CITY WITH PLEASE I WILL BE GOOD


THIS WAS ME AROUND THE PERIOD I WAS HURT AS BAD AS i WAS --AND i HOPE I MADE YOU ALL HAPPY AS I AM IN SEVERE PAIN THROUGHOUT MY LEGS AS I WALKED 13,981 STEPS =7.7 KM TO MAKE THE PEOPLE IN MY COMMUNITY AS HAPPY AS POSSIBLE AS THIS HAS BEEN A VERY DIFFICULT THING


HOWEVER THE PAIN IS EVEN WORSE IN THE PENTHOUSE I GET TO LIVE IN AND IF YOU CAN ASSIST THE MAD HATTER EXPERIENCE I WILL GIVE YOU SOME NFT's and Other Digital Assets as I see very little cash -- please help me, i will treat you as the QUEEN of My Life & World I am sorry but you Girls / Ladies scare the shit out of me you really do

Remember BE BRAVE



Do not be scared of INSANE KITTY as she is cute maybe


Love You All

My Body is in MASSIVE PAIN RIGHT NOW


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